"You are so kind, so good." There was deep feeling in her voice; she
looked at him with a certain wistful eagerness. "You really do care,
don't you? Shall I tell you? I should like to. It seems silly not to
tell you, and I think you have a right to know--after to-day."
"I really care a great deal, Hilda; but--I don't want to take an unfair
advantage, you know; I really have no right whatsoever. Wait till this
impulse of unmerited gratitude has passed."
"But it is nothing to tell, really nothing. You see--I make money. I
have to--I teach. There; that is all."
Peter looked at her, at the white oval of her face, at the unfashionable
little hat, at the shabby coat and skirt. A lily of the field who toiled
and spun. And a hot resentment rose within him as he thought of the
father, the mother, the sister.
"Why _have_ you to?" he asked, in a hard voice.
"We are so dreadfully poor, and we are so dreadfully in debt."
"But why you alone? What can _you_ do?"
"I can do a good deal. I have been very lucky. I love my work too, and I
make money by it, so it is natural. Mamma, of course, would think it
terrible, degrading even; but I can't agree with mamma's point of view;
I think it is quite wrong. I see nothing terrible or degrading."
"No; nothing terrible or degrading, I grant you."
"You think I am right, don't you?"
"Yes; quite right, dear, quite right."
Odd paused before adding: "It is the incongruity that is shocking."
"The incongruity?" Hilda's voice was vague.
"Between your life and theirs; yes."
"Oh, you don't understand. I love my work; it is my pleasure. Besides,
they don't know; they don't realize the necessity either."
"Why the teaching? I thought your pictures sold well."
"And so they do, often; but I took up the teaching some years ago,
before I had any hope of selling my pictures; it is very _sure_, very
well paid, and I really find it a rest after five hours of studio work;
after five hours I don't feel a picture any longer."
"Yet they must know that the money comes from somewhere?"
Hilda's voice in replying held a pained quality; this attack on her
family very evidently perplexed her.
"Mamma thinks it comes from papa, and papa, I suppose, doesn't think
about it at all; he knows, too, that I sell my pictures. You mustn't
imagine," she added, with a touch of pride and resentment, "that they
would let me teach if they knew; you mustn't imagine that for one
moment. And I don't mean to let them know, for then I couldn't help
them; as it is, my help is limited. The money goes, for the most part,
towards _guarding_ mamma. She could not bear shocks and anxiety."
Odd said nothing for some moments.
"How did it begin? how did you come to think of it?" he asked.
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