There was a movement in the bedroom. The folding-doors opened inward,
and the curate appeared. He was very pale, and looked really ill. His
face had fallen in. His fair hair was slightly disordered, and his blue
eyes were surrounded by red rims. His expression suggested that he had
recently undergone an extremely violent shock, which had shaken badly
both body and mind. He looked dazed. Coming forward feebly, he held
out his hand.
"I believe it is something important," he said in a gentle, rather
wavering voice; "otherwise--I am hardly fit, I fear, to be with my kind.
I"--He sat down--"I have had a terrible shock, Mr. Malling. You have
heard?"
"You mean Mr. Harding's death?"
"Yes."
"I have just heard of it."
"It occurred at half-past three o'clock last night, or, rather, this
morning. He had been declining for a long while. At the last he just
faded out, as it were. The strange thing is that I knew the exact moment
when he entered into rest."
"You weren't with him?"
"Oh, no. I was here, asleep. But at three o'clock I awoke. I felt
violently agitated. I can scarcely describe the sensation. It was
as if I was torn, as if mind and body, or spirit and body, were torn,
lacerated. I suffered the greatest conceivable agony. I tried to cry
out, but I could not. Nor could I move. Then everything suddenly seemed
to fail, all in a moment, and I was at peace. But it was like the peace
of death, I think. And I was aware--I don't know how--that Mr. Harding
was dead. I moved. I looked at my watch. It was a minute after half-past
three. I noted down the time. And this morning--I heard."
"And then?"
"Only then I understood my loss--the loss to us all. Ah, Mr. Mailing,
you knew him, but not as I did! Few or none knew him as I did. He was
the greatest and best of men, full of power, but full of kindness and
goodness, too. He guided me in everything. I can never tell you how I
looked up to him, how I trusted him. His judgment was extraordinary, his
reading of character was unerring. I do believe he knew me better than I
knew myself. What shall I do without him?"
The curate's grief was almost as genuine and unself-conscious as a
child's, and Malling felt as if at that moment, like a child, he felt
himself adrift in a difficult world. His gentle, kindly, but not strong
face was distorted, but not hardened, by his distress, which seemed
begging for sympathy. And Malling remembered the Henry Chichester he had
known some years ago, before the days of St. Joseph's, the saintly but
rather weak man, beloved by every one, but ruling no one. That man was
surely before him, and that man knew not how to play a hypocrite's part.
Yet Malling felt he must test him.
"His death is very sad," he replied; "but surely his powers had been on
the decline for a long while."
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