Children -- Fiction; Fantasy fiction; Paranormal fiction
As the days passed, and they came to know one another better, she told
him frankly about the small beginnings of her work, and then how Dick’s
idea had caught her up and carried her away to where she now was.
‘There was so much to be done, and so much help needed, that at first,’
she admitted, ‘my own little efforts seemed absurd; and then he showed
me that if everybody talked like that nothing would ever be
accomplished. So I got up and tried. It was something definite and
practical. I let my bigger dreams go——’
‘Well done,’ he interrupted, wondering for a moment what those ‘bigger
dreams’ could have been.
‘——and chose the certainty. And I have never regretted it, though
sometimes, of course, I am still tempted——’
‘That was fine of you,’ he said. He realised vaguely that she would
gladly, perhaps, have spoken to him of those ‘other dreams,’ but it was
not quite clear to him that his sympathy could be of any avail, and he
did not know how to offer it either. To ask direct questions of such a
woman savoured to his delicate mind of impertinence.
‘There was nothing “fine” about it,’ she laughed, after an imperceptible
pause; ‘it was natural, that’s all. I couldn’t help myself really. Human
suffering has always called to me very searchingly. _Au fond_, you see,
it was almost selfishness.’
He suddenly felt unaccountably small with this slip of a woman at his
side, tired, overworked, giving all her best years so gladly away, and
even in her ‘holidays’ thinking of her work more than of herself. He
noticed, too, the passing flames that lit fires in her eyes and
illumined her entire face sometimes when she spoke of her London waifs.
Pity and admiration ran together in his thoughts, the latter easily
predominating.
‘But you must make the most of your holiday,’ he said presently; ‘you
will use up your forces too soon——’
‘Perhaps,’ she laughed, ‘perhaps. Only I get restless with the feeling
that I’m wanted elsewhere. There’s so little time to do anything. The
years pass so quickly—after thirty; and if you always wait till you’re
“quite fit,” you wait for ever, and nothing gets done.’
Paul turned and looked steadily at her for a moment. A sudden beauty,
like a white and shining fire, leaped into her face, flashed about the
eyes and mouth, and was gone. Paul never forgot that look to the end of
his days.
‘By Jove,’ he said, ‘you _are_ in earnest!’
‘Not more than others,’ she said simply; ‘not as much as many, even, I’m
afraid. A good soldier goes on fighting whether he’s “fit” or not,
doesn’t he?’
‘He ought to,’ said Paul—humbly, for some reason he could hardly
explain.
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