Whilst they talked and dreamed, decision came to them in the shape of
Mrs. Lessingham. Without warning, she one day presented herself at
their lodgings, having come direct from Paris. Her spirits were
delightful; she could not have behaved more graciously had this
marriage been the one desire of her life. The result of her private
talk with Cecily was that within a week all three travelled down to
London; there they remained for a fortnight, then went on to Paris.
Mrs. Lessingham's quarters were in Rue de Belle Chasse, and the Elgars
found a suitable dwelling in the same street.
Their child was born, and for a few months all questions were postponed
to that of its health and Cecily's. The infant gave a good deal of
trouble, was anything but robust; the mother did not regain her
strength speedily. The first three months of the new year were spent at
Bordighera; then came three months of Paris; then the family returned
to England (without Mrs. Lessingham), and established themselves in the
house in Belsize Park.
The immediate effect of paternity upon Elgar was amusing. His
self-importance visibly increased. He spoke with more gravity; whatever
step he took was seriously considered; if he read a newspaper, it was
with an air of sober reflection.
"This is the turning-point in his life," Cecily said to her aunt. "He
seems to me several years older; don't you notice it? I am quite sure
that as soon as things are in order again he will begin to work."
And the prophecy seemed to find fulfilment. Not many days after their
taking possession of the English home, Reuben declared a project that
his mind had been forming. It was not, to be sure, thoroughly
fashioned; its limits must necessarily be indeterminate until fixed by
long and serious study; but what he had in view was to write a history
of the English mind in its relation to Puritanism.
"I have a notion, Ciss, that this is the one thing into which I can
throw all my energies. The one need of my intellectual life is to deal
a savage blow at the influences which ruined all my early years. You
can't look at the matter quite as I do; you don't know the fierce
hatred with which I am moved when I look back. If I am to do literary
work at all, it must be on some subject which deeply concerns me--me
myself, as an individual. I feel sure that my bent isn't to fiction; I
am not objective enough. But I enjoy the study of history, and I have a
good deal of acuteness. If I'm not mistaken, I can make a brilliant
book, a book that will excite hatred and make my name known."
They were sitting in the library, late at night. As usual when he was
stirred, Reuben paced up and down the room and gesticulated.
"Do you mean it to be a big book!" Cecily asked, after reflection.
"Not very big. I should have French models before me, rather than
English."
"It would take you a long time to prepare."
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