In a week's time it had become a regular thing for Mrs. Travis to spend
an hour or two daily with Madeline. Their conversation was suitable
enough to a sick-chamber, yet strangely unlike what is wont to pass in
such places. On Madeline's side it was thoroughly morbid; on that of
her visitor, a curious mixture of unhealthy speculation and pure
feeling. Mrs. Travis was at first surprised that the suffering girl
never seemed to think of ordinary religion as a solace. She herself had
no fixity of faith; her mind played constantly with creeds of negation;
but she felt it as an unnatural thing for one of Madeline's age to
profess herself wholly without guidance on so dark a journey. And
presently she began to doubt whether the profession were genuine. The
characteristic of the family was pretence and posing; Mrs. Denyer and
Barbara illustrated that every time they spoke. Not impossibly Madeline
did but declare the same tendency in her rambling and quasi-philosophic
talk. She was fond of warning Mrs. Travis against attributing to her
the common prejudices of women. And yet, were it affectation, then the
habit must be so inextricably blended with her nature as to have become
in practice a genuine motive in the mind's working. Madeline would
speculate on the difference between one of her "culture" in the
circumstances and the woman who is a slave of tradition; and a moment
after she would say something so profoundly pathetic that it brought
tears to her companion's eyes.
Mrs. Travis never spoke of her personal affairs; Madeline could supply
no food for the curiosity of her mother and sister when they questioned
her about the long private conversations. The lodger received no
visitors, and seldom a letter. In the morning she went out for an hour,
generally towards the heath; occasionally she was from home until late
at night. About the quality of the attendance given her she was wholly
indifferent; in spite of frequent inconveniences, she made her weekly
payments without a word of dissatisfaction. She had a few
eccentricities of behaviour which the Denyers found it difficult to
reconcile with the refinement of her ordinary conduct. Once or twice,
when the servant went into her sitting-room the first thing in the
morning, she was surprised to find Mrs. Travis lying asleep on the
couch, evidently just as she had come home the previous night, except
that her bonnet was removed. It had happened, too, that when some one
came and knocked at her door during the day, she vouchsafed no answer,
and yet made the sound of moving about, as if to show that she did not
choose to be disturbed, for whatever reason.
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