He got up and moved away, leaving her staring blankly at his back. He
had been rough to her often, but never before spoken with this note of
peremptory, peevish displeasure. She felt an obscure sense of trouble,
a premonition of disaster. She went to him and, standing close, put
her hand inside his arm.
"Low," she pleaded, "what's wrong with you? You were angry that they
came. Now you're angry at what they say. I don't understand. Tell me
the reason of it. If there's something that I don't know let me hear
it, and I'll try and straighten things out."
For a tempted moment he longed to tell her, to gain ease by letting her
share his burden. The hand upon his arm was a symbol of her hold upon
him that no action of his could ever loose. If he could admit her
within the circle of his isolation he would have enough. He would lose
the baleful consciousness of forever walking apart, separated from his
kind, a spiritual Ishmaelite. She had strength enough. For the moment
he felt that she was the stronger of the two, able to bear more than
he, able to fortify him and give him courage for the future. He had a
right to claim such a dole of her love, and once the knowledge hers,
they two would stand, banished from the rest of the world, knit
together by the bond of their mutual knowledge.
The temptation clutched him and his breast contracted in the rising
struggle. His pain clamored for relief, his weakness for support. The
lion man, broken and tamed by the first pure passion of his life, would
have cast the weight of his sin upon the girl he had thought to bear
through life like a pampered mistress.
With the words on his lips he looked at her. She met the look with a
smile that she tried to make brave, but that was only a surface
grimace, her spirit's disturbance plain beneath it. There was pathos
in its courage and its failure. He averted his eyes, shook his arm
free of her hand, and, moving toward the water, said:
"Go back to the tent and go to bed."
"What are you going to do?" she called after him, her voice sounding
plaintive. Its wistful note gave him strength:
"Walk for a while. I'm not tired. I'll be back in an hour," and he
walked away, down the edge of the current, past the pits and into the
darkness.
She watched him, not understanding, vaguely alarmed, then turned and
went back to the tent.
CHAPTER III
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