But Jennie herself made that kind of love more difficult. On returning
to town Bob found her changed. During all the weeks of the _modus
vivendi_ she had been gentle, submissive, grateful, accepting his terms
in the provisional spirit in which she understood them, and carrying
them out. When Teddy’s affairs were settled—and they never defined what
they meant by that—she knew they were to have a reckoning; but the
reckoning was to be postponed till then.
And now, all at once, she seemed disposed to force it on. His visit to
his family had frightened her. It frightened her the more in that he
said so little about it. He, too, was changed. He was silent, pensive.
He watched her more and talked to her less; but when he watched her his
eyes, so she said to herself, had a queer kind of sorrow in them. She
didn’t wonder at that. Anyone’s eyes would have had sorrow in
them—anyone who was seeing Teddy nearly every day and filling him up
with fortitude. If it had not been for Teddy’s sake she would have done
her best to get Bob "out of it" long ago.
Her fear now was of not being able to make this attempt of her own
accord. In other words, she shrank from being found out before
confessing of her own free will. Twenty words from Mrs. Collingham to
her son would rob her, Jennie, of such poor shreds of good intention as
she still possessed.
The trouble was, first, the lack of opportunity, and then, the waiting
for the right emotional moment. It was not a thing you could spring at
any chance hour of the day. Something must lead up to it and make it
natural.
But a week after his return from Sugar Maple Point, the occasion seemed
to present itself. It was one of those evenings in late September when
indoors was too stifling. In pursuance of his plans for distracting the
family, which meant so much to Teddy, Bob had motored the mother and
daughters to a small country restaurant, where they had had supper, and
had brought them home again. Lizzie and the two girls having said good
night, Jennie was about to do the same, but he held her by the hand.
"Don’t go in. Let’s walk a bit."
"So it’s come," Jennie thought. "I must do it before we get home."
Even so she put it off. He, too, put off whatever in himself was burning
to find words. They said as little as they could without being
altogether silent, and that little was mere commonplace.
"Wonderful night, isn’t it?"
"Yes; and I think we’re going to have a breeze. It isn’t so hot as an
hour ago."
"Anyhow, the hot weather must be nearly over. It will be October in a
day or two."
"But we often have very hot days in October. I remember that last year—"
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