"What can the law do with fellows of our sort? Look at the thing
straight now. We’ve got good in us, of course; but you can’t trust us to
hold our horses. I don’t blame them for what they’re giving me—hardly
any. Only, I’ll be darned if it doesn’t make me surer that all this is
only an experiment—a way of finding out how not to do it—so that we can
make the next go a better one."
They discussed this topic in a desultory way, not so much letting it
drop as pursuing it each in his own thought. Teddy picked up the line
again after an interval of time, and some distance farther on.
"I suppose you can’t believe that you come to a place where you know
you’re through and are in a hurry to get on. Well, you do. I guess old
people like ma reach there, anyhow; and young people, too, when
they’re—when they’re like me. I’ve had my shot—and I’ve miffed it. Now
I’m all on edge to have another try. I’m so crazy about that that the
thing that’s to happen first doesn’t seem anything—very much."
The hours wore on, but it seemed to Bob a night to which there was no
time. Though the support he brought to Teddy was merely that of
companionship, he felt that the boy was outstripping him. In Teddy’s own
phrase, he was "moving on," but moving on very fast. Bob couldn’t tell
how he knew this; he only felt himself being left behind. Teddy was
quite right; his old experiment _was_ over, and some of the exaltation
of the new one was already breaking through. That was the meaning of his
silences, his abstractions. That was why he came out of each such spell
with a smile that grew more luminous.
The Italian and the negro fell asleep. The four guards talked less to
one another. Clutching the bar grew tiring. Brannigan, one of Teddy’s
guards, brought up a chair, offering it to Bob.
"Why don’t you sit down? It’ll be quite a while yet."
Bob took the chair, Teddy the one inside the cell. Bringing it as close
to the bars as possible, he thrust his fingers through the opening to
touch Bob’s hand. Bob closed the fingers within his palm, and so held
them.
"I’m not going to send any message to ma and the girls. They know I love
them. You can’t add anything to that." A sidelong smile stole through
the bars. "I love you too, Bob. I guess it’s a bum thing to say, but
to-night—well, it’s different—and I’m going to say it. I can’t do
anything to thank you; but it may mean something to you to have me
loving you like the devil all the way from—from over there."
"It means something to me now."
"Then that’s all right."
The Italian breathed heavily. The negro snored. The guards were bored
and somnolent. Teddy might have been asleep except for the look and the
smile that every now and then crept through the bars toward his
companion.
Suddenly he pulled his fingers from Bob’s clasp, jumped to his feet, and
held out his arms.
"All right, ma! I’m ready!"
The cry was so loud and joyous that Bob sprang up. Brannigan lumbered
forward.
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