Again deeply distressed in heart, Saul at set of sun withdraws
to the top of Olivet for solitary thought. There falling asleep,
after pensive soliloquy, he dreams that Shimei has followed him
thither, and that he now pours a characteristic strain of sneer and
instigation into his ear. This rouses him, and he goes moodily home.
After a long, deep slumber there, he resolves on undertaking what he
dreamed that Shimei proposed, namely, the arrest of the apostles.
His men fail him at the pinch, and Saul bitterly upbraids them,
declaring strongly that their renegade behavior only determines him
the more sternly to root utterly out the pestilent Galilæan heresy,
at whatever cost of exertion and blood and tears.
SAUL AND THE APOSTLES.
So one day more of bitterness had spent
Saul, and the night, the solemn night, came on,
Grateful to him, for he would be alone.
Whether the thought of home, no home, repelled,
Or longing toward his sister unconfessed
There in that banishment at Bethany
Bright with her presence in it--whether this
Drew him, or wish of lonely room and height
Where more he might from human kind be far--
However listing, Saul to Olivet
Turned him, and slowly to the summit climbed.
The moon not risen yet, the hemisphere
Of heaven above him was with clustered stars
Glittering, and awful with the glory of God.
Upward into those lucid azure deeps,
Withdrawn, deep beyond deep, immeasurably,
Gazing, Saul said: "Deep calleth unto deep!
Those deeps above me unto deeps within
Me cry, as infinite to infinite.
The spaces of my spirit answer back;
I feel them, empty but capacious, vast
And void abysses of unfed desire,
Hunger eternal and eternal thirst!
Upward I gaze, and see the steadfast stars
Unshaken in their station calmly shine,
I listen to the silence of the skies
And yearn, with what desire! for peace like that,
Vainly, with what desire! for peace like that!
Beneath the pure calm of the holy heaven,
So nigh! here am I seething like the sea,
That cannot rest, casting up mire and dirt
Continually! O state forlorn! Where, where,
My God, for me is rest? For me, for me!
'Great peace have they,' so sang that psalmist taught
By Thee, 'Great peace have they that love Thy law
And nothing shall offend them.' Answer me,
Lord God, do _I_ not love Thy law? Then why
This opposite of peace within my breast?
Am I deceived? Do _not_ I love Thy law?
Answer me Thou!"
But answer came there none,
Or Saul was deaf, and the great sky looked down,
With all its multitude of starry eyes,
Impassible, upon a human soul
Wretched, unrespited from long unrest.
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