Italy -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Violinists -- Fiction
A pæan upon the lips, nectar in his veins, he had approached the terrace
as if on air. Anne's head was better, so Regina had told him. She had
gone out into the garden, was sitting alone under the scattered stars.
How surprised she would be when the notes of his violin stole upon her
through the night! He would play the Canzonetta from Tchaikowsky's
Concerto, the one they both loved the best. It was just the thing for a
night like this. A heavy, mysterious night. A night weighted with warm
perfume and the promise of hidden rapture. A quivering, mischievous
smile upon his lips, he had tiptoed to the bottom of the terrace. Violin
tucked beneath his chin, bow raised, ready to sweep the strings, he had
suddenly paused. From the terrace above a man's voice had cut into the
silence. Alexis held his breath. So Anne was not alone after all? A
caller, some unknown man had chosen to-night of all nights to make her a
visit. How annoying! And yet how absurd of him to be upset. Why
shouldn't Anne have a visitor? It was the most natural thing in the
world. Only a monopolist like himself could possibly grudge it her.
Besides, it would be a good opportunity to become acquainted with one of
Anne's friends. He decided to mount the steps and meet the intruder as
cordially as possible, when the sound of Anne's voice, vibrant and
agitated, had reached his ears, and he had listened in spite of himself.
"But he doesn't know, he doesn't dream that I don't love him, poor boy!"
Then the man's voice, pleading, but masterful. "But, Anne, doesn't my
unhappiness mean as much to you as his?"
That answer of Anne's! Those flaying words that laid bare Alexis' soul!
That confession of love, which had undermined his whole structure of
being!
And the entire horror had passed within the space of a moment. The air
still vibrated with Anne's words, was heavy with their import. Stunned,
Alexis had crawled out of hearing and leaned against the base of the
terrace. Dismembered, leaden, his limbs rocked beneath him sickeningly.
Presently, when the strength flowed back into them again, he would creep
away to the gates where his car was waiting. Meanwhile, he must be very
silent. A single, uneven breath, a smothered sob might betray him. And
they must not guess his presence until he was beyond reach or recall. To
steal away was the least he could do. He would steal away out of Anne's
life, like a thief who has stolen another man's treasure, and then come
back surreptitiously, to return it. He, Alexis, was a thief. He had
tried to take what did not belong to him. He was an unsuccessful thief,
moreover, for Anne's love had never been his. From the bottomless abyss,
he knew it now if never before. The woman who had lain in his arms,
whose body he had called his own, had never belonged to him at all. She
had remained remote as a condescending goddess. Pitiful, without doubt,
but fundamentally untouched. "And yet it is her pity that pains me
most."
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