Meanwhile, he was grievously conscious of the growing estrangement
between himself and Poppy St. John, which he connected, in some way,
with this haunting yet unspoken suspicion of her relation to de Courcy
Smyth--a suspicion which tended to rob intercourse of all spontaneity
by introducing into it a spirit of embarrassment and constraint. He
would have given so very much to know the truth and be able to reckon
finally with it; but he judged it unpermissible that he should approach
the ugly subject first. It was Poppy's affair, her private and unlovely
property. While she elected to keep silence, therefore, it would be
disloyal for him to speak. Still it distressed him, adding to his
mental and emotional unrest. The happiness might have gone out of their
intercourse, yet there were times when he wearied for sight and for
speech of her more than he quite cared to admit. George Lovegrove still
held aloof. Dominic rallied his faith in the divine purpose, rallied
his obedience to the divine ruling, fixed his eyes more patiently upon
the promise of the far horizon; yet it must be owned he felt very
friendless and sad at heart.
To-day, driven in part by that friendliness, he had come out on the
chance of gaining some news of Poppy. Disappointment, however, awaited
him. For the discreet Phillimore, though receiving him graciously,
reported her mistress resident at home again, it is true, but gone into
town on business, probably theatrical, and unlikely to return until
late. Therefore Dominic had walked on to Barnes Common, and finding the
uncomfortable bench by the roadside--whereon Cappadocia, the toy
spaniel, had sought his protection more than a year ago--untenanted,
had sat down there to meditate. Cedar Lodge was no longer a refuge. He
preferred to keep away from it as long as might be. Perhaps, too, as
the sun dropped the air would grow cooler, and the southeasterly
draught, parched and scorching as from the mouth of a furnace, which
huffled at times only to fall dead, might shift to some more merciful
quarter. A coppery haze hung over London, above which the rusty white
summits of a range of cumulus cloud towered into the thick grey-blue of
the upper sky. Possibly the cloud harboured thunder and the refreshment
of rain amid its giant crags and precipices. On the chance of such
refreshment he would stay.
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