"But, Chris, I want you to understand how sorry I am that I was so vile
to you. I really was vile, wasn't I?" Elisabeth was the type of woman
for whom the confessional will always have its fascinations.
"You were distinctly down on me, I must confess; but you needn't worry
about that now."
"And you quite forgive me?"
"As I said before, I've nothing to forgive. You were perfectly right to
be annoyed with a man who appeared to be so careless and inconsiderate;
but I'm glad you've found out that I wasn't quite as selfish as you
thought."
Elisabeth stroked his coat sleeve affectionately. "You are not selfish
at all, Chris; you're simply the nicest, thoughtfullest, most unselfish
person in the world; and I'm utterly wretched because I was so unkind to
you."
"Don't be wretched, there's a dear! Your wretchedness is the one thing I
can't and won't stand; so please leave off at once."
To Christopher remorse for wrong done would always be an agony; he had
yet to learn that to some temperaments, whereof Elisabeth's was one, it
partook of the nature of a luxury--the sort of luxury which tempts one
to pay half a guinea to be allowed to swell up one's eyes and redden
one's nose over imaginary woes in a London theatre.
"Did you mind very much when I was so cross?" Elisabeth asked
thoughtfully.
Christopher was torn between a loyal wish to do homage to his idol and a
laudable desire to save that idol pain. "Of course I minded pretty
considerably; but why bother about that now?"
"Because it interests me immensely. I often think that your only fault
is that you don't mind things enough; and so, naturally, I want to find
out how great your minding capacity is."
"I see. Your powers of scientific research are indeed remarkable; but
did it never strike you that even vivisection might be carried too
far--too far for the comfort of the vivisected, I mean; not for the
enjoyment of the vivisector?"
"It is awfully good for people to feel things," persisted Elisabeth.
"Is it? Well, I suppose it is good--in fact, necessary--for some poor
beggars to have their arms or legs cut off; but you can't expect me to
be consumed with envy of the same?"
"Please tell me how much you minded," Elisabeth coaxed.
"I can't tell you; and I wouldn't if I could. If I were a rabbit that
had been cut into living pieces to satisfy the scientific yearnings of a
learned professor, do you think I would leave behind me--for my
executors to publish and make large fortunes thereby--confidential
letters and private diaries accurately describing all the tortures I had
endured, for the recreation of the reading public in general and the
said professor in particular? Not I."
"I should. I should leave a full, true, and particular account of all
that I had suffered, and exactly how much it hurt. It would interest the
professor most tremendously."
Christopher shook his head. "Oh, dear! no; it wouldn't."
"Why not?"
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