Christopher went to Australia in search of George Farringdon's son, and
Elisabeth stayed in England and cherished bitter thoughts in her heart
concerning him. That imagination of hers--which was always prone to lead
her astray--bore most terribly false witness against Christopher just
then. It portrayed him as a hard, self-righteous man, ready to sacrifice
the rest of mankind to the Moloch of what he considered to be his own
particular duty and spiritual welfare, and utterly indifferent as to how
severe was the suffering entailed on the victims of this sacrifice. And,
as Christopher was not at hand to refute the charges of Elisabeth's
libellous fancy by his own tender and unselfish personality, the accuser
took advantage of his absence to blacken him more and more.
It was all in a piece with the rest of his character, she said to
herself; he had always been cold and hard and self-contained. When his
house had been left unto him desolate by the stroke which changed his
uncle from a wise and kindly companion into a helpless and peevish
child, she had longed to help and comfort him with her sympathy; and he
had thrown it back in her face. He was too proud and too superior to
care for human affection, she supposed; and now he felt no hesitation in
first forsaking her, and then reducing her to poverty, if only by so
doing he could set himself still more firmly on the pedestal of his own
virtue. So did Elisabeth's imagination traduce Christopher; and
Elisabeth listened and believed.
At first she was haunted by memories of how good he had been to her when
her cousin Maria died, and many a time before; and she used to dream
about him at night with so much of the old trust and affection that it
took all the day to stamp out the fragrance of tenderness which her
dreams had left behind. But after a time these dreams and memories grew
fewer and less distinct, and she persuaded herself that Christopher had
never been the true and devoted friend she had once imagined him to be,
but that the kind and affectionate Chris of olden days had been merely a
creature of her own invention. There was no one to plead his cause for
him, as he was far away, and appearances were on the side of his
accuser; so he was tried in the court of Elisabeth's merciless young
judgment, and sentenced to life-long banishment from the circle of her
interests and affections. She forgot how he had comforted her in the day
of her adversity. If he had allowed her to comfort him, she would have
remembered it forever; but he had not; and in this world men must be
prepared to take the consequences of their own mistakes, even though
those mistakes be made through excess of devotion to another person.
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