Then he brought her here, here to this beautiful, lonely, wind-girt,
sea-girt island, and left her to strain her eyes out into the sea,
that said nothing to her. The sky was empty for her, the flowers, it
seemed to her, faded as she looked. Poor beauty! poor coquettish,
light-hearted Fenella!
Then she met Frank in the street, and light flashed back to her, and
memory and understanding. In a rush of emotion she saw him as a lover,
as husband, as Murderer. She knew what he had done. She knew, too, what
she had done to save him. “Frank!” the words rushed to her lips, words
of love, of forgiveness, of----and he repelled her. Ice-cold on her
heart he lay, his dead love, his living contempt, and she who would
have died for him, seemed as if she died by him. He killed her. Not
physically; she still lived, moved, breathed, but her faith was dead,
and her hope, and her youth. She staggered home to her old seat by the
window. She felt sick, and giddy, and dazed as from an earthquake; all
her world was in ruins. It was only now she realized the hope on which
she had lived all this time. Only now she knew that Frank had been the
bulwark on which she rested, the light toward which she had looked.
That though she was past reason, and had not asked why he had delayed,
she had felt he would come, and that in his eyes she would read his
love for her that had never swerved, his faith in her that would answer
for all things, his gratitude to her, gratitude that she would put
away, and not let him linger over, but would banish and forget, and it
should be forgotten. Nothing should be between them any more, but love.
He would bring her back Ronny, he and she and Ronny would be together
always.
And then they had met and he had repulsed her, rejected her, looked
upon her coldly! She was hopeless. She looked out over the blue sea,
the rocks, the sails, the harbor, but there was a film before her eyes,
all things were darkened. Even the face of nature would never smile
upon her again. Hope was dead.
Then he came back. He knelt at her feet, he called her by a thousand
endearing names, he kissed her hands, the hem of her dress. She sat
there dumb, stricken as a statue, the film darkening before her eyes,
and her brain throb, throbbing, like the screw of a steam engine.
“Fenella, my wife, my darling! For Heaven’s sake, listen to me. Don’t
look at me like that, my darling, hear me. I never knew. I swear, I
never knew. I was ill, I heard nothing, knew nothing until an hour ago.
My sweet, what you must have suffered! Fenella, speak--a word, a little
word. Sweetheart, think of our childhood.”
And then a little moan came from her, a little sighing moan, and she
fell half forward. He caught her in his arms. “Darling,” he said again
passionately, “only hear me. Ah!”
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