The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)Bordeaux, Henry
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The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)
Bordeaux, Henry
French fiction -- Translations into English
“Yes,” added his wife, in a noble impulse of eloquence. “We will
honor his glorious memory. We will get up a memorial service whose
magnificence shall astonish all Chambéry. It is the duty of our class
to show France how genuine merit must be recognised and rewarded, at a
time when mediocrity has taken possession of the country, when envious
equality drags it down to the lowest level.” She had read this last
sentence that very morning in a leading article of the _Gaulois_.
Alice, surprised to hear all this, thought in her sorrow, “Why then,
did she refuse to let me give myself to him?” And Isabelle was silent,
thinking of Jean Berlier, whose fate was still unknown.
Madame Orlandi, forgetting Pistache for a minute, noticed how
abstracted her daughter was. She looked at her with loving admiration
and praised herself for the depth of her maternal affection. In an
outburst in which the thought of self did not swallow up all pity she
expressed her concern for Madame Guibert.
“Does his mother know?” she asked. And she stopped confusedly, as
though she felt herself guilty of a scandal. All eyes turned to Clément
Dulaurens. The young man answered in a free and easy way, the bad taste
of which was due rather to his youth than to any lack of feeling.
“She must know all by now. As I was coming home I met her driving back
to Le Maupas in her old cart. She was passing under a gas lamp; I
recognised her quite well, I had to go slowly on account of my damaged
car.”
These words brought a dreadful feeling of actuality into the company.
It seemed as if the cold outside air had suddenly frozen this
comfortable dining-room.
Instinctively M. d’Amberlard, who was completely bored, examined
the windows to see if they were open. A shudder passed through the
assembly, all of whom were haunted by the same vision: the picture
of an old woman, already heavily tried by life’s sorrows, going home
through the snow, contented and unsuspecting, to that home where news
of death awaited her.
This inevitable catastrophe which was about to take place--which was
perhaps taking place at this very moment--came home to them all even
more than the glorious faraway death of Commander Guibert on African
soil.
A sob from Alice broke the oppressive silence. In a frightened voice
Isabelle murmured: “She knows by now.”
The mothers all broke down unreservedly, and Madame Dulaurens promptly
resolved to comfort and console the poor woman in an early visit.
With all these solemn faces round him, Clément, who loved gaiety
at table, at last recognised his thoughtlessness and admitted to
himself, “Now I’ve done it!” His father, a slave to punctilio, without
paying any attention to the rest of the conversation, returned to
the discussion of an accessory point which he had not sufficiently
developed.
“The mayor of Cognin should have gone to them and broken the news
delicately, instead of just rudely sending a policeman,” he stated.
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