The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)Bordeaux, Henry
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The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)
Bordeaux, Henry
French fiction -- Translations into English
“I thank you very much and I beg you to thank these ladies from me for
their good intentions. We celebrated a service at Cognin according
to our means. Our friends came in spite of the cold and the long
distances. The general commanding here came in person. A great many
officers would like to have accompanied him. We do not wish to have any
other outward demonstrations. But I thank you.”
“Yes, Madame. I understand your feelings. Families do not willingly
bear the intrusion of strangers in their mourning. But this is a
special case. The death of Commander Guibert is a public misfortune.
France is wounded by the death of your son. His life and his death do
honor to Savoy. You cannot wonder that Savoy should publicly show him
her great gratitude. The family resources are necessarily limited.
Let us act. Do not deprive us of this pleasure.” ... And checking the
inappropriate word as she uttered it, she corrected herself: “This
melancholy pleasure, I would say, which is given us by intercession
for the dead. Services and priests are prayers in themselves. Can so
excellent Christians as you refuse those that we offer up for you?
Have you the heart to prevent our sharing your sorrow with you?”
“The Church approves of ceremony and worship,” said Mademoiselle de
Songeon, whose religion was luxurious and aristocratic.
Alice had noticed an enlarged photograph of Marcel, and at this moment
saw only the man whom she had loved so unworthily.
Madame Guibert still hesitated, not about her answer, but about the
words of the answer, which she wished to make as polite and delicate as
she could. Madame Dulaurens had come to offer to supplement the simple
funeral services at Cognin, devoid of all ostentation and parade, with
a ceremony far less humble, one brilliant indeed and worldly. Wealth
was visiting poverty and desiring to extend its patronage to it. Paule
understood well, and indignantly glanced at her mother with those dark
eyes of flashing light. But Madame Guibert had seen in this offer only
respect for the memory of her son, and although she was resolved to
negative any idea of a proceeding which she considered useless, she
tried to avoid words which might cause the slightest offence.
Fearing her mother’s shyness and misled by her hesitation, the girl
forestalled her boldly:
“We are much touched, Madame Dulaurens, by your offer. We value it as
it should be valued and we regret having to decline this honor. My
brother’s memory has received suitable recognition. We do not wish any
more public testimony than what we have already received. God does not
measure His blessings by the magnitude of the ceremonies.”
As if she attached no importance whatever to Paule’s declaration,
Madame Dulaurens made as though to turn towards Madame Guibert. The
latter quite comprehended and felt herself bound to say:
“Yes, Paule is right, Madame Dulaurens.”
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