“It’s going to be the most awful show,” she wrote to Elizabeth. “Douglas
and I spend all our time trying to persuade each other that it isn’t
going to be awful, but we know it is. All our relations and all our
friends, and all their children and all their best clothes, and an
amount of fuss, worry, and botheration calculated to drive any one
crazy. If I hadn’t an enormous amount of self-control I should bolt,
either with or without Douglas. Probably without him. Then he’d have a
really thrilling time tracking me down. It’s an awful temptation, and if
you don’t want me to give way to it, you’d better come up at least three
days beforehand, and clamp on to me. Do come, Lizabeth. I really want
you.”
Elizabeth went up to London the day before the wedding, and Agneta
detached herself sufficiently from her own dream to say:
“You’re not Issachar any longer. What has happened?”
“I don’t quite know,” said Elizabeth. “I don’t think the burden’s gone,
but I think that some one else is carrying it for me. I don’t seem to
feel it any more.”
Agneta smiled a queer little smile of understanding. Then she laughed.
“Good Heavens, Lizabeth, if any one heard us talking, how perfectly mad
they would think us.”
Elizabeth found August a very peaceful month. A large number of her
friends and acquaintances were away. There were no calls to be paid and
no notes to be written. She and David were more together than they had
been since the time in Switzerland, and she was happy with a strange
brooding happiness, which was not yet complete, but which awaited
completion. She thought a great deal about the child—the child of the
Dream. She came to think of it as an indication that behind the Dream
was the Real.
Mary came back on the 15th of September. She was looking very well, and
was once more in a state of extreme contentment with Edward and things
in general. When she had poured forth a complete catalogue of all that
they had done, she paused for breath, and looked suddenly and sharply at
Elizabeth.
“Liz,” she said. “Why, Liz.”
To Elizabeth’s annoyance, she felt herself colouring.
“Liz, and you never told me. Tell me at once. Is it true? Why didn’t you
tell me before?”
“Oh, Molly, what an Inquisitor you would have made!”
“Then it _is_ true. And I suppose you told Agneta weeks ago?”
“I haven’t told any one,” said Elizabeth.
“Not Agneta? And I suppose if I hadn’t guessed you wouldn’t have told me
for ages and ages and ages. Why didn’t you tell me, Liz?”
“Why, I thought I’d wait till you came back, Molly.”
Mary caught her sister’s hand.
“Liz, aren’t you glad? Aren’t you pleased? Doesn’t it make you happy?
Oh, Liz, if I thought you were one of those _dreadful_ women who don’t
want to have a baby, I—I don’t know what I should do. I wanted to tell
everybody. But then I was _pleased_. I don’t believe you’re a bit
pleased. Are you?”
“I don’t know that pleased is exactly the word,” said Elizabeth. She
looked at Mary and laughed a little.
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