India -- History -- 1000-1526 -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Reincarnation -- Fiction
What passed between them now were difficult to relate. Afterwards
they themselves had but a confused idea. It was very certain that
Ahalya loved him; for she delivered herself up entirely to his will.
Yet, with each of them, passion was mingled with something better: a
deep tenderness, a high companionship, the mutual compassion of the
unhappy. She laid upon him a great responsibility, telling him over
and over again that without him she should not try to live; explaining
the torture of her self-hatred: the shame that, loving him, she must
still submit to another; wetting his eyes with her tears while she
demanded from him a solution of her miserable problem. Pitying while
he loved, Fidá read what her warped life had been, and all the history
of her loneliness. Nor did he fail her in a certain sort of comfort,
of a philosophical nature, for which she cared little, save that it
came from his lips. But she listened eagerly to all that he told her
of himself, of his country and his life; though he withheld the story
of the curse, of which, at their first meeting, he had given her a
suggestion that she seemed to have forgotten. They talked long, but the
talk was finally hushed. Fidá extinguished the single lamp that burned.
And later, Neila, come to warn them of the time, found them there in
the darkness, Ahalya weeping in his arms.
This time it was the woman that bade her lover leave her; for Fidá
had not the strength to put her from him. When at last he reached
the anteroom, only three or four minutes before the appearance of
Churi’s relief, the latter’s heart was in his throat, and he was
ready to declare that he would never again run the risk of disaster
and discovery through the slave’s rashness. Later in the night he
sought Fidá in his own room, and the two had a long talk together. The
eunuch had come with the purpose of protesting against the present
arrangement, with which he was in a high state of dissatisfaction. But
he ended by allowing himself to be, to some extent, overpowered by the
earnestness and the logic of love; though after he had departed, Fidá
lay awake for a long time, anxiously considering the risks that he ran
in placing all his dependence on this one person, whom he knew very
well to be in some ways entirely unreliable.
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