India -- History -- 1000-1526 -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Reincarnation -- Fiction
After an hour or two of meditation and quiet, the Asra took resolution
on a certain matter which he had been pondering for a long while.
Ever since he had become certain that the curse was actually on him,
he had wondered whether or not Churi had yet disposed of the ruby. It
was Churi’s place to have thought of the stone for him; and he hated
himself for the desire he had to touch it again. But it had apparently
never occurred to the eunuch to use the blessed jewel as a remedy;
and, as often as the thought came to Fidá, he put it resolutely from
him in shame. By this time, however, his hunger to gaze upon the charm
had grown great and fierce. He felt an intense desire to live; and,
believing the means of health to be within easiest reach, what wonder
that his temptation came again and again? This evening, in view of the
new trust, which he had the strongest desire honorably to keep, the
temptation suddenly overcame him, and, putting away his pride, perhaps
even his self-respect, he went to seek out the doctor.
Churi was in his own room, eating. Looking up from his food, he gave
Fidá his usual easy salute:
“Vishnu favor thee! I am told that thou’rt to be given sole charge of
the young prince. Truly, Asra, the King loves thee as well as his wife.
Wilt deign to eat with me?”
Fidá did not respond to the ill-timed raillery. He stood leaning
against the wall, gazing at the eunuch with so strange an expression
that Churi changed his mood.
“Thou’rt ill to-night,” said he, more gently.
“Yes, I am ill,” answered the Asra, in a low, harsh tone. “I am dying,
Churi.”
“Dying! Why shouldst thou die, lover?”
“Allah! Thou knowest why.”
“Ah! The old legend. Dost really believe—that—”
“Canst thou doubt that I am cursed?”
They remained facing each other, silent, staring. No further words
were necessary. Churi knew very well now why he had come; but he sat
struggling with himself, for he was disturbed. Nevertheless Fidá’s
ghastly face pled strongly. After a few moments, during which the slave
suffered under his degradation, Churi rose, walked to the shadowy
corner of the room, bent over for a moment or two, working in the earth
of the floor, and then came back to Fidá with the gold box in his hand.
Fidá, looking into the unmatched eyes, saw animosity in one and scorn
in the other.
“There. Take back thy gift.” Churi held the box out to him.
To the eunuch’s astonishment, Fidá deliberately accepted it, rolled
the ruby out into his hand, and for a moment feasted his eyes on it.
Then he pressed it to his breast, shut his eyes, and moved his lips in
prayer. When the prayer ended, he replaced the jewel in its case, and
once more held it out to Churi, who had stood in silence, watching him.
“I thank thee,” said Fidá, simply.
Churi looked surprised anew. “Wilt thou not keep it?” he asked.
“Ah! Thou thinkest me such a dog?”
“Will that help thee—just the moment of it?”
“I do not know; yet it seems to me that the very sight of it hath
helped me.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account