“A man might well have started the question what good could lie in the
existence of a duality in which the appearance was, if not exactly, yet
so nearly identical, that no one but my brother or myself could have
pointed out definite differences; but it could have been started only by
an outsider: my brother and I had no doubt concerning the advantage of a
duality in which each was the other's double; the fact was to us a never
ceasing source of delight. Each seemed to the other created such,
expressly that he might love him as a special, individual property of his
own. It was as if the image of Narcissus had risen bodily out of the
watery mirror, to be what it had before but seemed. It was as if we had
been made two, that each might love himself, and yet not be selfish.
“We were almost always together, but sometimes we got into individual
scrapes, when--which will appear to some incredible--the one accused
always accepted punishment without denial or subterfuge or attempt to
perplex: it was all one which was the culprit, and which should be the
sufferer. Nor did this indistinction work badly: that the other was just
as likely to suffer as the doer of the wrong, wrought rather as a
deterrent. The mode of behaviour may have had its origin in the
instinctive perception of the impossibility of proving innocence; but had
we, loving as we did, been capable of truthfully accusing each other, I
think we should have been capable of lying also. The delight of existence
lay, embodied and objective to each, in the existence of the other.
“At school we learned the same things, and only long after did any
differences in taste begin to develop themselves.
“Our brother, elder by five years, who would succeed to the property, had
the education my father thought would best fit him for the management of
land. We twins were trained to be lawyer and doctor--I the doctor.
“We went to college together, and shared the same rooms.
“Having finished our separate courses, our father sent us to a German
university: he would not have us insular!
“There we did not work hard, nor was hard work required of us. We went
out a good deal in the evenings, for the students that lived at home in
the town were hospitable. We seemed to be rather popular, owing probably
to our singular likeness, which we found was regarded as a serious
disadvantage. The reason of this opinion we never could find, flattering
ourselves indeed that what it typified gave us each double the base and
double the strength.
“We had all our friends in common. Every friend to one of us was a friend
to both. If one met man or woman he was pleased with, he never rested
until the other knew that man or woman also. Our delight in our friends
must have been greater than that of other men, because of the constant
sharing.
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