“From that moment, the English widow set before her the devil-victory of
alienating two hearts that loved each other--and she gained it for a
time--until Death proved stronger than the Devil. People said we could
not be parted: _she_ would part us! She began with my brother. To tell
how I know that she began with him, I should have to tell how she began
with me, and that I cannot do; for, little one, I dare not let the tale
of the treacheries of a bad woman toward an unsuspecting youth, enter
your ears. Suffice it to say, such a woman has well studied those regions
of a man's nature into which, being less divine, the devil in her can
easier find entrance. There, she knows him better than he knows himself;
and makes use of her knowledge, not to elevate, but to degrade him. She
fills him with herself, and her animal influences. She gets into his
self-consciousness beside himself, by means of his self-love. Through the
ever open funnel of his self-greed, she pours in flattery. By
depreciation of others, she hints admiration of himself. By the slightest
motion of a finger, of an eyelid, of her person, she will pay him a
homage of which first he cannot, then he will not, then he dares not
doubt the truth. Not such a woman only, but almost any silly woman, may
speedily make the most ordinary, and hitherto modest youth, imagine
himself the peak of creation, the triumph of the Deity. No man alive is
beyond the danger of imagining himself exceptional among men: if such as
think well of themselves were right in so doing, truly the world were ill
worth God's making! He is the wisest who has learned to 'be naught
awhile!' The silly soul becomes so full of his tempter, and of himself in
and through her, that he loses interest in all else, cares for nobody but
her, prizes nothing but her regard, broods upon nothing but her favours,
looks forward to nothing but again her presence and further favours. God
is nowhere; fellow-man in the way like a buzzing fly--else no more to be
regarded than a speck of dust neither upon his person nor his garment.
And this terrible disintegration of life rises out of the most wonderful,
mysterious, beautiful, and profound relation in humanity! Its roots go
down into the very deeps of God, and out of its foliage creeps the old
serpent, and the worm that never dies! Out of it steams the horror of
corruption, wrapt in whose living death a man cries out that God himself
can do nothing for him. It is but the natural result of his making the
loveliest of God's gifts into his God, and worshipping and serving the
creature more than the creator. Oh my child, it is a terrible thing to
be! Except he knows God the saviour, man stands face to face with a
torturing enigma, hopeless of solution!
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