“She ended with a toneless laugh, in which my brother joined. She turned
upon him with a pitiless mockery which, I see now, must have left in his
mind the conviction that she had been but making game of him; while I
never doubted myself the dupe. Not once had she received me as I now saw
her: though the night was warm, her deshabille was yet a somewhat
prodigal unmasking of her beauty to the moon! The conviction in each of
us was, that she and the other were laughing at him.
“We locked in a deadly struggle, with what object I cannot tell. I do not
believe either of us had an object. It was a mere blind conflict of
pointless enmity, in which each cared but to overpower the other. Which
first laid hold, which, if either, began to drag, I have not a suspicion.
The next thing I know is, we were in the water, each in the grasp of the
other, now rolling, now sweeping, now tumbling along, in deadly embrace.
“The shock of the ice-cold water, and the sense of our danger, brought me
to myself. I let my brother go, but he clutched me still. Down we shot
together toward the sheer descent. Already we seemed falling. The terror
of it over-mastered me. It was not the crash I feared, but the stayless
rush through the whistling emptiness. In the agony of my despair, I
pushed him from me with all my strength, striking at him a fierce, wild,
aimless blow--the only blow struck in the wrestle. His hold relaxed. I
remember nothing more.”
At this point of the verbal narrative, my uncle Edmund again spoke.
“You never struck me, Ed,” he cried; “or if you did, I was already
senseless. I remember nothing of the water.”
“When I came to myself,” the manuscript goes on, “I was lying in a pebbly
shoal. The moon was aloft in heaven. I was cold to the heart, cold to the
marrow of my bones. I could move neither hand nor foot, and thought I was
dead. By slow degrees a little power came back, and I managed at length,
after much agonizing effort, to get up on my feet--only to fall again.
After several such failures, I found myself capable of dragging myself
along like a serpent, and so got out of the water, and on the next
endeavour was able to stand. I had forgotten everything; but when my eyes
fell on the darting torrent, I remembered all--not as a fact, but as a
terrible dream from which I thanked heaven I had come awake.
“But as I tottered along, I came slowly to myself, and a fearful doubt
awoke. If it was a dream, where had I dreamt it? How had I come to wake
where I found myself? How had the dream turned real about me? Where was I
last in my remembrance? Where was my brother? Where was the lady in the
moonlight? No, it was not a dream! If my brother had not got out of the
water, I was his murderer! I had struck him!--Oh, the horror of it! If
only I could stop dreaming it--three times almost every night!”
Again uncle Edmund interposed--not altogether logically:
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