Bildungsromans; Families -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New England -- Fiction
Nathan was at home a month later when another letter arrived from Japan.
Milly was down to her mother’s and he was dining from a corner of the
kitchen table when the bell rang and the postman handed it in. Nathan
read it while finishing his lunch.
Tokio, Japan, Sept. 10, 1916.
Nathan Forge, Paris, Vt.
Dear Sir:—
Your cable has reached me, saying you got my letter giving you
your last chance to do the square thing by your father and repay
him for all he has done and suffered for you—and you are not
interested.
I might have known. You are that kind of a son. I am done with
you—done, done, done!
Carefully through my things I have searched and culled out all
that pertains to you; every reminder of you. Out of my heart and
my life I am blotting you. Henceforth my son is dead. I never
had a son.
Certain things which I have carried in my wallet, I am returning
herewith. Cherish them! Save them for the dark hours, the
melancholy twilights, the haunting midnights. Sleep with them
beneath your pillow and take them out in dreams and say: I am
cursed by my father! I am a son outside the pale! I have
desecrated God. I have damned my soul!
Your cable and its unnatural message cuts the last ties binding
me to the past. Henceforth I go alone, a wanderer on the face of
the earth, the cup of happiness dashed from my lips, life an
inferno of What-Might-Have-Been—made so by the boy whom I gave
the breath of life and who now brings down my gray hairs in
sorrow to the grave.
Where I go and what becomes of me, you will never know. You will
wonder after your dear father but the winds shall return no
answer where he has gone—the hideous ingratitude of the course
you have elected to pursue will arise and point taunting fingers
at you. All your joys and happiness shall be blighted. The rain
shall patter down and the night winds whine in the casements.
And to you they shall say—“I am accursed!” I am accursed! My
father has accursed me and nowhere on earth is there peace for
my throbbing head!”
Therefore, farewell! When you look into the faces of your
children, may your crime and ingratitude sear you to madness. In
the midst of your laughter may you be sobered and the nectar of
joy in your glass turn to vinegar. And if in the last great day,
pursuing my right to happiness, I stumble and fall, on your head
be my sin!
Already in the lowest depths of hell (in unhappiness and misery
of spirit) I point my awful finger at you and I cry: “Curse you!
Curse you! Curse you!”
Good-by forever!
JONATHAN HADLEY FORGE.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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