Bildungsromans; Families -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New England -- Fiction
Nathan was shocked, badly shocked. He had seen Bernice on the streets of
Paris once, at the time of her mother’s funeral. But he had not beheld
her in a “close up” or spoken with her since the day in Haskell’s
pasture. He looked at the woman approaching him now and—and she was
Bernice Gridley—but oh, how changed!
Nathan knew she was of an age with himself, just turning twenty-seven.
She looked forty and not very successful in looking it, either. She was
half a head shorter than Nathan and had to look slightly upward into his
eyes. Yet she was big-boned and coarsened, and the daring gown she wore
did nothing to soften the outlines of coarseness in her figure. The gown
was plainly expensive, yet on Bernie it was hideous. It was dull green,
to contrast with her once-gold hair. But it was cut from the bust down
almost to her waist in the back and the display of nudity was disgusting
and repellent, particularly so because Bernie had lost her girlhood
plumpness. Her bones poked through her skin and her sawtooth spine
reminded Nathan of some pictures he had once seen of starving Cubans,
taken nude to show their pathetic emaciation. The woman carried a large
green fan which she now held against her flat breasts in a manner that
only called attention to her bizarre costume and admitted that
subconsciously it shamed her.
Nathan was so stunned by the change that for a few seconds he could only
stare, his tongue glued to the roof of his mouth. Bernice took it for
self-consciousness and provincial awkwardness, traits she detested. They
reminded her too vividly of her humble origin and “what she had risen
from.”
“Well, Nathan?” she demanded sharply. “Where did you come from?”
Nathan fought for his wits.
“I’m—on my way to the Orient,” he stammered. “It’s—the first time—I was
ever in Chicago—and I thought I’d stop off and look you—up!”
“The Orient! What in the world are you going to the Orient for? Aren’t
you afraid you’ll get lost out there—such a long way from Vermont?”
“Of course, if you don’t care about seeing me, Bernie, I won’t impose on
you,” returned Nathan stiffly.
Bernice covered her annoyance with a forced smile.
“What did you want to see me about?” she demanded.
Well, what did he want to see her about? It would be a foolish
reason—the true one—to explain.
“I—I—haven’t seen you for going on sixteen years, Bernie. And I
thought—I thought—well, I saw your father about a month ago.”
“Yes? How is he?” Bernice asked it perfunctorily, as she might have
asked after sundry unfortunates in devastated Belgium.
“He’s—well,” gulped Nathan. He looked down at his hands, raised his eyes
to Bernie’s, smiled foolishly, dropped them again in embarrassment.
Bernice made no comment on her father being well. And Nathan saw how
life had hardened her. The woman was adamant. Her eyes, as she watched
the man’s embarrassment, seemed to declare, “Oh, what a hick you are!
Oh, what a hick!”
“Well?” she suggested irritably.
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