England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
Soon after the eventful visit to London, Godwin paid his mother a
Saturday to Monday visit, and took the opportunity of the old lady’s
afternoon nap to make a formal remonstrance with Deborah.
She was sitting on the old-fashioned fender-stool by the drawing-room
fire, stroking the head of his fox terrier, when he came very softly
down the long, cold-looking room, and stood behind her. She was
bending down over the dog, talking to him softly; but presently,
lifting up her head and perceiving the blocking out of the light from
the window behind her, she turned with a start.
“Oh, Godwin, you startled me! I didn’t hear you come in. I thought
you’d gone over to Llancader.”
“I changed my mind; I wanted to have a talk with you.” Deborah moved
impatiently. He went on quickly, noticing this movement, “Oh, not on
the old subject; don’t be afraid. I see you are not in the mood for
one of my matter-of-fact proposals. I’m not even going to ask you why
you are so particularly brusque, not to say snappish, to me this time.
But I want to know why you don’t keep another servant. You know very
well that, with what I send to her, my mother can afford it.”
Deborah, who had got up from the fender-stool and seated herself
firmly on a chair, spoke very coldly and decisively.
“Is there anything wrong about the house, then--dirty windows, unswept
carpets, or bad cooking--that you are dissatisfied with our
arrangement?”
Godwin bounced up from the chair he had taken, and, standing with his
back to the fireplace, stared over her head defiantly.
“Well, of all the disagreeable, bad-tempered girls I ever met, you are
the most impossible to do anything with,” he said, at last losing his
temper. “What do you suppose I want you to keep another servant for,
except to save you trouble? Considering that I don’t live at home,
what would it matter to me if the washing were hung over the front
garden wall, and the knives cleaned on the drawing-room table?”
“What are you grumbling for, then?”
“I was not grumbling at all. I merely thought that a second servant
would allow you to have more time to yourself.”
“That was not your reason at all. You thought it more in accordance
with the family dignity--that is, your dignity--that there should be
two servants in your mother’s house.”
Godwin brought his eyes quickly down from the window, and looked at
her with a keenness which made her uncomfortable.
“You are unhappy,” he said at last, shortly, and not at all tenderly.
“You never used to fish among people’s motives for a mean one like
that. You have had some annoyance or disappointment, and, like an
unreasoning woman, you visit it on me, because you think you can hurt
me. But you shan’t! you shan’t!”
And he put his hands in his pockets, and walked away up the room with
a defiant air.
Deborah felt sorry and ashamed. He was quite right, and she knew it.
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