Ranchers -- Fiction; Revenge -- Fiction; Western stories
But this passion for the woman who had so suddenly entered his life was
merely the opening of vials of emotion hitherto held sealed. It was no
radical transformation. All that had been his before still remained,
buried perhaps for the moment under the avalanche of feeling, but
nevertheless still occupying its place. These things could not be
swept away. They could not be destroyed. They would remain when the
passionate fires had completely burned themselves out.
But the unlooked-for had happened. These fires had not been permitted
to burn themselves out. They had been extinguished, deluged out of
existence when the idol of his worship was flung headlong from its
pedestal by the complete revolt of his moral being. His prejudices,
his instincts, matured through years of effort, were the stronger part
of him, and the conflict was decided before it began. The shock of
discovery had brought a terrible reaction. His love was killed under
the blow. And though for a while the sense of overwhelming disaster
had been crushing, the measure of that disaster was taken swiftly. It
left him disillusioned, it left him harder, colder. But it left him
sane.
These things were not all, however. On this night he had approached
far nearer the hell which only a woman can create for a man than his
first discovery had borne him. The irony of it was perfect. Out of
her great love for him, solely in his interest, in a great desire to
shield him from a danger she saw threatening him, she had contrived to
convince him that she had been as ready to sacrifice him, his
interests, the interests of his friends, as she had been to accept the
price offered for the blood of his twin brother.
So the eyes of the night looked down upon the haunting figure of a man
who knew neither mercy, nor pity, nor hope. The world of human
happiness had closed its doors upon him, and his whole spirit and body
demanded a fierce retaliation.
That was the mood which looked out of his coldly shining eyes. That
was the mood which drove the horse under him at a headlong gait, and
left his spurs blood-stained upon his heels. That was the mood that
left him caring nothing for any danger that might lurk under cover of
the starlit dark of night. The fierceness of his temper demanded
outlet. Bodily outlet. Active conflict. Anything, so that a burning
lust for hurt should be satisfied. He cared nothing at all for
himself. No bodily suffering could compare with the anguish of mind he
had passed through, was still passing through. And so he rode headlong
till the youth accompanying him was hard put to it to keep pace with
him.
The hammering of the horses' hoofs upon the sun-baked earth was a
fitting accompaniment to his mood. The sigh of the night breezes
through the trees was no less desolate than his heart. Nor was the
darkness one whit more dark than the stream of thought which flowed
through his hot brain.
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