The Forlorn Hope: A Novel (Vol. 1 of 2)Yates, Edmund
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The Forlorn Hope: A Novel (Vol. 1 of 2)
Yates, Edmund
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"No, sir," said Susan; "and I can't think where it can have got to.
Missus hasn't wore it, sir, not this fortnight; and I have looked
everywhere for it. You'll find all her things quite right, sir, except
that ring; and Mrs. Prendergast, she knows nothing about it neither;
for I called her my own self to take off missus's wedding-ring,
as it was missus's own wish as she should do it, and she missed the
seal-ring there and then, sir, and couldn't account for it no more
than me."
"Very well, Susan, it can't be helped," replied Wilmot; and Susan
again left him.
He sat long, looking at the golden circlet as it lay in the broad palm
of his hand. It had never meant so much to him before; and even yet he
was far from knowing all it had meant to her from whose dead hand it
had been taken. At last, and with some difficulty, he placed the ring
upon the little finger of his left hand, saying as he did so, "I must
find the other, and always wear them both."
CHAPTER XII.
The Leaden Seal.
When Chudleigh Wilmot arose on the following morning, with the
semi-stupefied feeling of a man on whom a great calamity has just
fallen, not the least painful portion of the task, not the least
difficult part of the endurance that lay before him was the inevitable
interview with his dead wife's friend. Mrs. Prendergast had requested
that he would receive her early. This he learned from the servant who
answered his bell; and he had directed that she should be admitted as
soon as she arrived. He loitered about his room; he dallied with the
time; he dared not face the cold silent house, the servants, who
looked at him with natural curiosity, and, as he thought, avoidance.
If the case had not been his own, Wilmot would have remembered that
the spectacle of a new-made widow or widower always has attractions
for the curiosity of the vulgar: strong, if the grief in the case be
very violent; and stronger, if it be mild or non-existent. Wilmot was
awfully shocked by his wife's death, terribly remorseful for his own
absence, and perhaps for another reason--at which, however, he had not
yet had the hardihood to look--almost stunned by the terrible sense,
the conviction of the irrevocable ill of the past, the utterly
irreparable nature of the wrong that had been done. But all these
warring feelings did not constitute grief. Its supreme agony, its
utter sadness, its unspeakable weariness were wanting in the strife
which shook and rent him. The thought of the dead face had terror and
regret for him; but not the dreadful yearning of separation, not the
mysterious wrenching asunder of body and spirit, almost as powerful as
that of death itself, which comes with the sentence of parting, which
makes the possibility of living on so incomprehensible and so cruel to
the true mourner. Not the fact itself, so much as the attendant
circumstances, caused Wilmot to suffer, as he undoubtedly did suffer.
He knew in his heart that had there been no self-reproach involved in
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