"But that's part of your outfit--your line of business; you'll want it
again," said Paul.
Wilmer had played butlers up and down the land for many years. Now and
again, when the part did not need any special characterization, he
obtained London engagements. He was one of the known stage butlers.
"I can hire if I'm pushed," said he. "It's hell, isn't it? Something
told me not to go out with a fit-up. We'd never come down to it before.
And I mistrusted Larkins--but we were out six months. Paul, my boy,
chuck it. You're young; you're clever; you've had a swell education;
you come of gentlefolk--my father kept a small hardware shop in
Leicester--you have"--the smitten and generally inarticulate man
hesitated--"well, you have extraordinary personal beauty; you have
charm; you could do anything you like in the world, save act--and you
can't act for toffee. Why the blazes do you stick to it?"
"I've got to earn my living just like you," said Paul, greatly
flattered by the artless tribute to his aristocratic personality and
not offended by the professional censure which he knew to be just.
"I've tried all sorts of other things-music, painting, poetry,
novel-writing--but none of them has come off."
"Your people don't make you an allowance?"
"I've no people living," said Paul, with a smile--and when Paul smiled
it was as if Eros's feathers had brushed the cheek of a Praxitelean
Hermes; and then with an outburst half sincere, half braggart--"I've
been on my own ever since I was thirteen."
Wilmer regarded him wearily. "The missus and I have always thought you
were born with a silver spoon in your mouth."
"So I was," Paul declared from his innermost conviction. "But," he
laughed, "I lost it before my teeth came and I could get a grip on it."
"Do you mean to say," exclaimed Wilmer, "that you're not doing this for
fun?"
"Fun?" cried Paul. "Fun? Do you call this comic?" He waved his hand
comprehensively, indicating the decayed pink-and-purple wall-paper, the
ragged oil-cloth on the floor, the dingy window with its dingier
outlook, the rickety deal wash-stand with the paint peeling off, a
horrible clothless tray on a horrible splotchy chest of drawers,
containing the horrible scraggy remains of a meal. "Do you think I
would have this if I could command silken sloth? I long like hell, old
chap, for silken sloth, and if I could get it, you wouldn't see me
here."
Wilmer rose and stretched out his hand. "I'm sorry, dear boy," said he.
"The wife and I thought it didn't very much matter to you. We always
thought you were a kind of young swell doing it for amusement and
experience--and because you never put on side, we liked you."
Paul rose from the bed and put his hand on Wilmer's shoulder. "And now
you're disappointed?"
He laughed and his eyes twinkled humorously. His vagabond life had
taught him some worldly wisdom. The sallow and ineffectual man looked
confused. His misery was beyond the relief of smiles.
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