"I've got one," said Paul, and impulsively thrusting his fingers into
his waistcoat pocket, flicked them out with the pencil. But he also
flicked out the mean-looking card of which he had been hatefully
conscious all the evening. The Imp of Mischance arranged that as Miss
Winwood stood close by his side, it should fall, unperceived by him, on
the folds of her grey velvet train. He wrote the Bloomsbury address and
handed her the leaf torn from the pad. She folded it up, moved away,
turning back to smile. As she turned she happened to look downward;
then she stooped and picked the card from her dress. A conjecture of
horror smote Paul. He made a step forward and stretched out his hand;
but not before she had instinctively glanced first at the writing and
then at his barren waistcoat. She repressed a slight gasp, regarding
him with steady, searching eyes.
His dark face flushed crimson as he took the accursed thing, desiring
no greater boon from Heaven than instant death. He felt sick with
humiliation. The brightly lit room grew black. It was in a stupor of
despair that he heard her say, "Wait a bit here, till I've got rid of
these people."
He stumbled away and stood on the bearskin rug before the fireplace,
while she joined the lingering group by the door. The two or three
minutes were an eternity of agony to Paul. He had lost his great game.
Miss Winwood shut the door and came swiftly to him and laid her hand on
his arm. Paul hung his head and looked into the fire. "My poor boy!"
she said very tenderly. "What are you going to do with yourself?"
If it had not been for the diabolical irony of the mishap he would have
answered with his gay flourish. But now he could not so answer. Boyish,
hateful tears stood in his eyes and, in spite of anguished effort of
will, threatened to fall. He continued to look into the fire, so that
she should not see them. "I shall go on as I always have done," he said
as stoutly as he could.
"Your prospects are not very bright, I fear."
"I shall keep my head above water," said Paul. "Oh, please don't!" he
cried, shivering. "You have been so good to me. I can't bear you to
have seen that thing. I can't stand it."
"My dear boy," she said, coming a little nearer, "I don't think the
worse of you for that. On the contrary, I admire your pluck and your
brave attitude towards life. Indeed I do. I respect you for it. Do you
remember the old Italian story of Ser Federigo and his falcon? How he
hid his poverty like a knightly gentleman? You see what I mean, don't
you? You mustn't be angry with me!"
Her words were Gilead balm of instantaneous healing.
"Angry?"
His voice quavered. In a revulsion of emotion he turned blindly, seized
her hand and kissed it. It was all he could do.
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