Then they lapsed into silence. Until that troublous hour, they had
loved one another with the affection of brother and sister. In their
ignorance they still mistook their feelings for tender friendship,
although beneath their guileless love their ardent blood surged more
wildly day by day. Given age and experience, a violent passion of
southern intensity would at last spring from this idyll. Every girl who
hangs on a youth’s neck is already a woman, a woman unconsciously, whom
a caress may awaken to conscious womanhood. When lovers kiss on the
cheeks, it is because they are searching, feeling for one another’s
lips. Lovers are made by a kiss. It was on that dark and cold December
night, amid the bitter wailing of the tocsin, that Miette and Silvère
exchanged one of those kisses that bring all the heart’s blood to the
lips.
They remained silent, close to one another. A gentle glow soon
penetrated them, languor overcame them, and steeped them in feverish
drowsiness. They were quite warm at last, and lights seemed to flit
before their closed eyelids, while a buzzing mounted to their brains.
This state of painful ecstasy, which lasted some minutes, seemed
endless to them. Then, in a kind of dream, their lips met. The kiss
they exchanged was long and greedy. It seemed to them as if they had
never kissed before. Yet their embrace was fraught with suffering and
they released one another. And the chilliness of the night having
cooled their fever, they remained in great confusion at some distance
one from the other.
Meantime the bells were keeping up their sinister converse in the dark
abyss which surrounded the young people. Miette, trembling and
frightened, did not dare to draw near to Silvère again. She did not
even know if he were still there, for she could no longer hear him
move. The stinging sweetness of their kiss still clung to their lips,
to which passionate phrases surged, and they longed to kiss once more.
But shame restrained them from the expression of any such desire. They
felt that they would rather never taste that bliss again than speak of
it aloud. If their blood had not been lashed by their rapid march, if
the darkness had not offered complicity, they would, for a long time
yet, have continued kissing each other on the cheeks like old
playfellows. Feelings of modesty were coming to Miette. She remembered
Justin’s coarseness. A few hours previously she had listened, without a
blush, to that fellow who called her a shameless girl. She had wept
without understanding his meaning, she had wept simply because she
guessed that what he spoke of must be base. Now that she was becoming a
woman, she wondered in a last innocent transport whether that kiss,
whose burning smart she could still feel, would not perhaps suffice to
cover her with the shame to which her cousin had referred. Thereupon
she was seized with remorse, and burst into sobs.
“What is the matter; why are you crying?” asked Silvère in an anxious
voice.
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