I was all in error, dear friend. I have seen her; for the last two hours
we have conversed together, and my suspicion had no foundation. She
evidently knows all my history, and almost gives me to believe that one
day or other I may stand free of this terrible shame that oppresses me.
If this were possible, what vengeance would be enough to wreak on those
who have thus practised on me? Can you imagine any vendetta that
would pay off the heart-corroding misery that has made my youth like
a sorrowful old age, dried up hope within me, made my ambition to be a
snare, and my love a mere mockery? I could spend a life in the search
after this revenge, and think it all too short to exhaust it!
I have much to tell you of this Princess, but I doubt if I can remember
it. Her manner meant so much, and yet so little; there was such elegance
of expression with such perfect ease,--so much of the _finest_ knowledge
of life united to a kind of hopeful trust in mankind, that I kept
eternally balancing in my mind whether her intelligence or her
kindliness had the supremacy. She spoke to me much of the Harleys.
Ida was well, and at Florence. She had refused Wahnsdorf's offer of
marriage, and though ardently solicited to let time test her decision,
persisted in her rejection.
Whether she knew of my affection or not, I cannot say; but I opine not,
for she talked of Ida as one whose haughty nature would decline alliance
with even an imperial house if they deemed it a condescension; so that
the refusal of Wahnsdorf may have been on this ground. But how can it
matter to _me?_
I am to remain here a week, I think they said. Sir Horace Upton is
coming on his way south, and wishes to see me; but you will be with me
ere that time, and then we can plan our future together. As this web of
intrigue--for so I cannot but feel it--draws more closely around me, I
grow more and more impatient to break bounds and be away! It is evident
enough that _my_ destiny is to be the sport of some accident, lucky or
unlucky, in the fate of others. Shall I await this?
And they have given me money, and fine clothes, and a servant to wait
upon me, and treated me like one of condition. Is this but another
act of the drama, the first scene of which was an old ruined castle in
Ireland? They will fail signally if they think so; a heart can be broken
only once! They may even feel sorry for what they have done, but I can
never forgive them for what they have made me! Come to me, dear, kind
friend, as soon as you can; you little know how far your presence
reconciles me to the world and to yourself!--Ever yours,
C. M.
This letter Billy Traynor read over and over as he sat by Glencore's
bedside. It was his companion in the long, dreary hours of the night,
and he pondered over it as he sat in the darkened room at noonday.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account