Sussex (England) -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- England -- Fiction
“Thank you so much, Miss Beatup—it’s awfully kind of you. Yes, I’m
awfully happy, and”—coyly—“I hope Harry is too. But we mustn’t stop
any more—Harry has still the remains of his cold. _Do_ turn up your
collar, you naughty boy.”
Nell walked away rigid with contempt. “She’s silly and she’s
vulgar—she’s vulgarer than I, for all I’m only a farmer’s daughter.
‘Naughty boy!’—how common! She’s worse than Ivy.”
Miss Marian gave up her Red Cross work, and was seen going for long
walks with her Harry, and accompanying him on his parish rounds. She
was a big, ungainly, soapily clean female, with a certain uncouth
girlishness which did not endear her to the curate’s flock. Nell
could not imagine what he “saw in her”—she certainly did not read the
_Sermons of St. Gregory_. She wondered if he had loved her long—the
parish said “years,” but that he had been unable to propose (1) till
an expected legacy arrived, (2) till Miss Marian was sure she could
get nobody else. At all events, he must have been in love with her
during those days of Nell’s mirage—it was another bitter realisation
for her to swallow, another choking mouthful of humble-pie.
The poor little teacher crept about forlornly. She had not officially
given up her Sunday-school class, but she seized flimsy pretexts to
keep away; she even sometimes stayed away from church—then would
force herself to go thrice of a Sunday, in case her absence should
be put down to its true cause. She dodged the curate and Marian in
the lanes, but she seemed to run into them at every corner—they
always seemed to be going by the schoolhouse window. One evening, as
she passed Mr. Smith’s cottage by the church, she saw the firelight
leaping in his uncurtained study, and two dark figures stooping
together against the glow. She stopped and stared in, like a beggar
watching a feast; the table was laid for tea, and there were his
books and his pictures, all ruddy in the firelight, the flickering,
shuttled walls of the little room in which she had never set foot—his
home. Marian was there; she would pour out his tea and hand him his
cup. She would say, “Eat some more, dear; you’ve had a tiring day.”
Then she would make him lie back in his armchair and put his feet to
the fire, and she would curl up at his feet and read him the _Sermons
of St. Gregory_.... No, she wouldn’t do anything like this. Nell
laughed—that woman was Nell, not Marian. She was putting herself
where she wanted to be, in the other’s place. Marian would say,
“Don’t eat all the cake, naughty boy.” And then she would go and sit
on his knee. Ugh!... And Nell, who would have done so differently,
stood outside in the November dusk, with tears and rain on her face,
and little cold, red hands clenched in impotent longing.
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