Sussex (England) -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- England -- Fiction
“Please let me go”—for his arms were round her now.
“Not now I’ve got you, little kid.... I’m justabout going to keep you
till I know what you’re made of.”
He laughed, and her struggling passed suddenly into weakness.
Then his mouth pressed down on hers, and Nell, who had till that
moment known nothing but the bodiless spirit of love, suddenly met
him in the power of his fierce body. The contact seemed to break her.
She lay back helpless in Kadwell’s arms, unable to stir or resist
till he let her go, and he did not let her go till he seemed to have
drawn all the life out of her in a long kiss—all the hoard of fire
and sweetness which she had kept long years for another man he drew
out of her with his lips and took for his own.
Then he released her, and she fell back against the binns, gasping a
little, and crying, while her eyes strained to him through the dusk.
She seemed unable to move, and he pointed to the bowl of chicken-food
on the floor, saying, “Pick up that trug and come out.”
She did as he told her, and went out meekly at his heels.
7
Kadwell looked on Nell as a conquered kingdom. She herself was not
so sure, for after he had gone home that night, her flagging powers
revived, and she had a week in which to recruit her forces. During
that week she passed through moments of sick revulsion from him, in
which his strength and roughness disgusted her. But when he came
again, she found herself powerless as she had been before.
He had strong allies. Nell was lonely, friendless, humbled to the
dust; she was at the same time reacting from her former intellectual
and ecclesiastical influences. His love helped restore her
self-respect and his outstretched arms were rightly placed to catch
her as the pendulum swung her away from her old tastes and glories.
Nell found herself for the first time the interesting member of the
family—at least in her mother’s eyes. She was the courted, the
beloved—even if hand in hand with love came strange tyrannies—and her
sudden change to exaltation from degradation turned her head a little.
Sometimes there were hours when she saw clearly, saw that Kadwell was
impossible as her mate, that they had nothing in common, that not
even his passion was really acceptable to her.... He was a coarse
brute, who would always trample on her tastes and wishes and ignore
her mind and soul—and in these hours she knew that it was her mind
and soul which counted most, in spite of the newly-awakened body. She
was not really of a passionate nature, only a little drugged. She was
doping herself with Steve so that she might forget the anguish and
humiliation of the past autumn.
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