England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; English fiction; Families -- England -- Fiction
silent, stopping to listen to an owl; stopping to point out each star
coming so shyly up in the gray-violet of the sky. And that was the
evening when they had a strange little quarrel, sudden as a white squall
on a blue sea, or the tiff of two birds shooting up in a swift spiral of
attack and then—all over. Would he come to-morrow to see her milking?
He could not. Why? He could not; he would be out. Ah! he never told her
where he went; he never let her come with him among the laborers like
Sheila.
“I can't; I'm pledged not.”
“Then you don't trust me!”
“Of course I trust you; but a promise is a promise. You oughtn't to ask
me, Nedda.”
“No; but I would never have promised to keep anything from you.”
“You don't understand.”
“Oh! yes, I do. Love doesn't mean the same to you that it does to me.”
“How do you know what it means to me?”
“I couldn't have a secret from you.”
“Then you don't count honour.”
“Honour only binds oneself!”
“What d'you mean by that?”
“I include you—you don't include me in yourself, that's all.”
“I think you're very unjust. I was obliged to promise; it doesn't only
concern myself.”
Then silent, motionless, a yard apart, they looked fiercely at each
other, their hearts stiff and sore, and in their brains no glimmer of
perception of anything but tragedy. What more tragic than to have
come out of an elysium of warm arms round each other, to this sudden
hostility! And the owl went on hooting, and the larches smelled sweet!
And all around was the same soft dusk wherein the flowers in her hair
and round her waist gleamed white! But for Nedda the world had suddenly
collapsed. Tears rushed into her eyes; she shook her head and turned
away, hiding them passionately.... A full minute passed, each straining
to make no sound and catch the faintest sound from the other, till
in her breathing there was a little clutch. His fingers came stealing
round, touched her cheeks, and were wetted. His arms suddenly squeezed
all breath out of her; his lips fastened on hers. She answered those
lips with her own desperately, bending her head back, shutting her wet
eyes. And the owl hooted, and the white flowers fell into the dusk off
her hair and waist.
After that, they walked once more enlaced, avoiding with what perfect
care any allusion to the sudden tragedy, giving themselves up to the
bewildering ecstasy that had started throbbing in their blood with that
kiss, longing only not to spoil it. And through the sheltering larch
wood their figures moved from edge to edge, like two little souls in
paradise, unwilling to come forth.
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