With broken ways behind them, new roads in front of them as yet untried,
they seemed thus to be waiting a little, putting fragments together,
finding, as it were, their foothold, or perhaps seeking it, as yet
blindly. Prudence Varley's optimism would doubtless have averred that
the finding was only a matter of time. The Crevequers averred nothing;
it was not in them to analyse, as Prudence analysed and thought out. But
deep in their pondering eyes lay unsolved questions--questions they did
not consciously put to themselves; questions as to the happy road they
so blindly sought--whether it ran through new places or through old;
whether, if through new, it could be reached, seeing that temperament,
which had at least as much moulded circumstance as circumstance had
forced temperament, was probably in the end master of all the roads,
insisting that every one remained, as Betty had said, pretty much the
same sort of person as he began.
If one was so to remain, it would perhaps be wiser to seek no more. For
the basis of these new desires was, after all, so irremediably
shattered. What the Crevequers did not know was whether the desires had
any independent standing. For they would never be self-tormentors; they
would seek always, and have a considerable gift for finding, the
happiest way; they understood, as Prudence had said, the art of living
well enough for that. But where that quest would lead them it was not
given to them, not given to anyone, to know.
So, among all the confusion and the chaos of things broken and problems
unsolved, two facts alone stood out, stable and unquestioned, inevitably
sure. One was the complete breakage of the basis of their new
desires--its scattering into fragments, never, whatever else might come
to pass, to be pieced together. That destruction they had accepted; it
was too inevitable for rebellion. They had left that behind them; and
time would heal the memory, as time heals all hurts.
The other thing that emerged unquestionably out of the chaos was how
they were together; how they had been together through everything; how
they were together now, sailing pine-bark boats and seeking fresh roads;
how, along any roads they might chance to find, they would journey
together, knowing themselves admirable travelling-companions, knowing
that to be well amused on the road is three-parts of the journey's hope.
As Betty had said, 'We can help each other, and no one else in the world
can help us. Because we know each other so awfully well. Don't you see?'
Prudence had seen--seen, too, that it was the best thing they had--the
thing that would in the end matter, however much everything else failed.
She had seen the Crevequers cast up, as it were, out of fire, holding
this gold to them, when all else--the old and the new things alike--had
melted from their hands.
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