Italy -- History -- 1815-1870 -- Fiction; Italy -- History -- Revolution of 1848 -- Fiction; Revolutionaries -- Fiction
“We had to shoot,” he went on under his breath; “my mates and I. A man
must obey orders. We bungled it, and had to fire again--and he laughed
at us--he called us the awkward squad--and he'd been good to me----”
There was silence in the room. A moment later he straightened himself
up, made a clumsy military salute, and went away.
She stood still for a little while with the paper in her hand; then
sat down by the open window to read. The letter was closely written in
pencil, and in some parts hardly legible. But the first two words stood
out quite clear upon the page; and they were in English:
“Dear Jim.”
The writing grew suddenly blurred and misty. And she had lost him
again--had lost him again! At the sight of the familiar childish
nickname all the hopelessness of her bereavement came over her afresh,
and she put out her hands in blind desperation, as though the weight of
the earth-clods that lay above him were pressing on her heart.
Presently she took up the paper again and went on reading:
“I am to be shot at sunrise to-morrow. So if I am to keep at all my
promise to tell you everything, I must keep it now. But, after all,
there is not much need of explanations between you and me. We always
understood each other without many words, even when we were little
things.
“And so, you see, my dear, you had no need to break your heart over
that old story of the blow. It was a hard hit, of course; but I have had
plenty of others as hard, and yet I have managed to get over them,--even
to pay back a few of them,--and here I am still, like the mackerel in
our nursery-book (I forget its name), 'Alive and kicking, oh!' This
is my last kick, though; and then, to-morrow morning, and--'Finita la
Commedia!' You and I will translate that: 'The variety show is over';
and will give thanks to the gods that they have had, at least, so much
mercy on us. It is not much, but it is something; and for this and all
other blessings may we be truly thankful!
“About that same to-morrow morning, I want both you and Martini to
understand clearly that I am quite happy and satisfied, and could ask no
better thing of Fate. Tell that to Martini as a message from me; he is a
good fellow and a good comrade, and he will understand. You see, dear,
I know that the stick-in-the-mud people are doing us a good turn and
themselves a bad one by going back to secret trials and executions so
soon, and I know that if you who are left stand together steadily and
hit hard, you will see great things. As for me, I shall go out into
the courtyard with as light a heart as any child starting home for the
holidays. I have done my share of the work, and this death-sentence is
the proof that I have done it thoroughly. They kill me because they are
afraid of me; and what more can any man's heart desire?
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