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The Galaxy, April, 1877: Vol. XXIII.—April, 1877.—No. 4.
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"But this is not all. I might reconcile myself to this and be content.
I love Philip so truly that I think I could sacrifice my dearest, most
selfish wishes to him, and be satisfied to see him prosperous and
happy. But whether it is a keener sight that I possess, whether it is a
natural change that comes to all who submit to the influence of the
world, I know not; but Philip is not the same artist--he is not the
same man; but this, I think, no one knows; that his pictures have
changed is clear to all. Once he worked for the sake of the best; now
he works for 'success'; and Esther rates his paintings at the price
they bring. But had I lived even this might have been. Yet this is not
all. The sting, the bitterness of my bereavement is in my knowledge
that we are parted for ever. If Philip had not grown so far away from
me in the years in which he has not known me, I could expect some happy
reunion with him; but this man will need me no more in Heaven than he
now does upon earth. If I could now return to him and take Esther's
place by his side, I would jar upon him, displease him. He might love
me, but there would be little affinity between us. And I--have I not
changed? has not my ignorance turned to bitterness, my confidence to
disbelief? But it seems to me that a little sunshine would bring back
all that was sweet or good in me--yet I cannot tell. But this I know:
in the future the soul of this man will lay no claim to mine. We get
nothing without its price, and Philip has paid for a second love by the
loss of all he once thought dearest. Still it may be best, it may be
right.
"As for myself, some change is coming to me. It must be so, or I would
not be here to-night. You know what perhaps is to occur; you know how
long I was to linger; but of this I cannot speak. If I shall never see
him again, do you think I can talk of it?
"But, child, it fills me with wonder as I think that the spirit world
in which I have so long dwelt, of which I know nothing, is now,
perhaps, to be revealed to me. I have no fear of it. I believe that
when I enter Paradise--and I cannot believe that its doors are for ever
closed against me--that in some way the lost love of my husband, the
misled affection of my child, will be made up to me. Heaven defrauds us
of nothing; and as we are created to love and be loved, is it not true
that there must be compensation somewhere if it is torn from us, or
denied to us?
"But be that as it may," she said, looking down upon her companion with
sad and tender eyes. "You are a woman, and I have a charge to give you.
I warn you, child, that your love to Heaven cannot be too strong; your
love for man too true; but while you give to man the sweetness and
comfort of your life, you must look to Heaven alone for faithfulness."
* * * * *
When the girl looked up again, the morning star shone over the sea, a
fresh wind blew out of the yellowing sky, but she was alone upon the
sands.
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