Clodagh was conscious of the wailing sounds of grief for several
minutes after she had disappeared; then gradually they faded, as she
descended into the lower regions, to share the appalling and yet grimly
fascinating news with Burke and the farm-labourers; and silence reigned
in the lonely room.
When full consciousness that she was alone came to Clodagh, she let her
hands drop from the back of the chair; and, moving stiffly, crossed the
room to the fireplace.
She made no attempt to touch the notes that lay as Asshlin had placed
them; but she looked at them for long with a species of horror. And at
last, as though the thought of them had begotten other thoughts, she
raised her eyes to the picture hanging above them--the picture of
Anthony Asshlin in his lace ruffles and black satin coat, with his
powdered hair, his gallant bearing, and dark eager face.
The eyes of the picture seemed to look into hers with an almost human
smile of satire. Time had passed since that gay, reckless presence had
filled the old room; dice and duelling were gone out of fashion; but
human nature was unchanged--there were still Asshlins of Orristown!
"O God----" she said aloud; then she stopped. "There is no God!" she
added wildly--"there is no God!"
At the sudden sound of her voice, Mick rose from the corner where he
had been crouching. The sight of him calmed her; she passed her hand
once or twice across her eyes, then walked quite steadily across the
room.
The dog followed her closely; but at the door she stopped and looked at
him.
"No, Mick! You cannot come!"
By some extraordinary sagacity the animal whimpered, and pressed closer
to her skirt.
With an almost fierce impulse she stooped, kissed him once; then,
holding him back, slipped through the door and closed it.
He gave a frantic bark of misery, but she did not pause, she did not
even look back. Walking rapidly, she passed across the hall and out
into the open.
Turning to the right, she skirted the stable-yard and the orchard, and,
hurrying past the spot where years ago Milbanke had asked her to be his
wife, took the path to the Orristown cliffs.
Her thoughts trooped up like living things as she stumbled forward
along the uneven track. She was conscious of no fear, only of a
desolating loneliness--an enormous sense of futility, of finality. Last
night she had looked into the eyes of Fate, propounding the question of
how she was to carry on her life, and to-day she had read the answer in
the face of the portrait.
She hurried on unseeingly, covering the same track that her father had
covered on the night he had ridden out and met death on the dark
headland.
From time to time she stopped and looked at the sea--looked at the long
curve of shining beach with its margin of dark wreckage--looked at the
clustering cottages of Carrigmore, and marvelled in a dumb way at the
tragedy that could underlie so calm a scene.
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