And thus it came about that Clodagh Asshlin entered upon a new phase of
that precarious condition that we call life. The impulse that had
induced her to accept Milbanke's proposal was in no way complex. The
knowledge had suddenly been conveyed to her that, through no act of her
own, she had been placed under a deep obligation; and her primary--her
inherited--instinct had been to pay her debt as speedily and as fully
as lay within her power, ignoring, in her lack of worldly wisdom, the
fact that such a bargain must of necessity possess obligations other
than personal, which would demand subsequent settlement.
However unversed she may be in the world's ways, it is scarcely to be
supposed that any young girl, under normal conditions, can look upon
her own marriage as an abstract thing. But the circumstances of
Clodagh's case were essentially abnormal. Milbanke's proposal--and the
facts that brought her to accept it--came at a time when her mind and
her emotions were numbed by her first poignant encounter with death and
grief; and for the time being her outlook upon existence was clouded.
The present seemed something sombre, desolate, and impalpable; the
future something absolutely void.
For two days after the scene in the glen, she and Milbanke avoided all
allusion to what had taken place between them. He appeared possessed by
an insurmountable nervous reticence; while she, immersed in her
trouble, seemed almost to have forgotten what had occurred.
On the evening of the third day, however, the subject was again
broached.
Milbanke was sitting by one of the long, dining-room windows, reading
by the faint twilight that filtered in from the fast-darkening sky. The
light in the room was fitful; for though the table was already laid for
dinner, the candles had not yet been lighted.
With his book held close to his eyes, he had been reading studiously
for close upon an hour, when the quick opening of the door behind him
caused him to look round. As he did so, he closed his book somewhat
hastily and rose with a slight gesture of embarrassment, for the
disturber of his peace was Clodagh. But it was not so much the fact of
her entry that had startled him, as the fact that, for the first time
since her father's death, she was arrayed in her riding-habit.
Shaken out of his calm, he turned to her at once.
"Are you--are you going for a ride?" he asked in unconcealed surprise.
Clodagh nodded. She was drawing on her thick chamois gloves, and her
riding-crop was held under her arm. Had the light in the room been
stronger, he would have seen that her lips were firmly set and her eyes
bright with resolution. But his mind was absorbed by his surprise.
"But is it not rather--late?" he hazarded anxiously, with a glance
towards the window.
She looked up astonished.
"Late?" she repeated incredulously.
Then the look of faintly contemptuous tolerance that sometimes touched
her with regard to him passed over her face.
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