Africa, North -- Fiction; British -- Africa, North -- Fiction; Love stories; Married women -- Fiction
“It is not like me,” he said. “Men made it, and--it’s a fire that can
sink into ashes.”
An expression of sudden exaltation shone in her eyes.
“And God made you,” she said. “And put into you the spark that is
eternal.”
And now again she thought, she dared, she loved to think of the crucifix
and of the moment when he would see it in the tent.
“And God made you love me,” she said. “What is it?”
Androvsky had moved suddenly, as if he were going to get up from the
warm ground.
“Did you--?”
“No,” he said in a low voice. “Go on, Domini. Speak to me.”
He sat still.
A sudden longing came to her to know if to-night he were feeling as
she was the sacredness of their relation to each other. Never had they
spoken intimately of religion or of the mysteries that lie beyond and
around human life. Once or twice, when she had been about to open her
heart to him, to let him understand her deep sense of the things unseen,
something had checked her, something in him. It was as if he had divined
her intention and had subtly turned her from it, without speech, merely
by the force of his inward determination that she should not break
through his reserve. But to-night, with his hand on hers and the starry
darkness above them, with the waste stretching around them, and the
cool air that was like the breath of liberty upon their faces, she was
unconscious of any secret, combative force in him. It was impossible to
her to think there could have been any combat, however inward, however
subtle, between them. Surely if it were ever permitted to two natures to
be in perfect accord theirs were in perfect accord to-night.
“I never felt the presence of God in His world so keenly as I feel it
to-night,” she went on, drawing a little closer to him. “Even in the
church to-day He seemed farther away than tonight. But somehow--one
has these thoughts without knowing why--I have always believed that the
farther I went into the desert the nearer I should come to God.”
Androvsky moved again. The clasp of his hand on hers loosened, but he
did not take his hand away.
“Why should--what should make you think that?” he asked slowly.
“Don’t you know what the Arabs call the desert?”
“No. What do they call it?”
“The Garden of Allah.”
“The Garden of Allah!” he repeated.
There was a sound like fear in his voice. Even her great joy did not
prevent her from noticing it, and she remembered, with a thrill of pain,
where and under what circumstances she had first heard the Arab’s name
for the desert.
Could it be that this man she loved was secretly afraid of something in
the desert, some influence, some--? Her thought stopped short, like a
thing confused.
“Don’t you think it a very beautiful name?” she asked, with an almost
fierce longing to be reassured, to be made to know that he, like her,
loved the thought that God was specially near to those who travelled in
this land of solitude.
“Is it beautiful?”
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