It was June and wind was in the tree-tops. All the world was rustling
and birds were calling.
For the past seven months, since the winning of my fellowship, I had
been over-working and making myself brain-sick with thought. I was
twenty-three, and had arrived at “the broken-toy age” when a young man,
having pulled this plaything of a universe to pieces, begins to doubt
his own omniscience--his capacity to put it together. The more I sought
help from philosophies, the more I came to see that they were all
imperfect. No one had yet evolved a theory which had not at some point
to be bridged by faith--that beautiful optimism which is nothing less
than the hearsay of the heart. I was all for logic these days.
So, when I heard the June wind laughing in the trees, I tossed my books
aside. I left my doubts all disorderly upon the shelves to grow dusty,
and ran away. I would seek for the garden without walls. Having failed
to find it in libraries, I would search for it through the open country.
I had only two certainties to guide me--that I was young, and that the
world was growing lovelier every day.
I came down to quaint little Ransby, perched high and red above the old
sea-wall. Life was taken so much for granted there. No one inquired into
its why or wherefore. Everything that happened was accepted with a quiet
stoicism, as “sent from God.” When the waves rumbled on the shore, they
said the sea was talking to itself. When a crew sailed out and never
returned, they said “God took them.” When times were bad, they looked
back and remembered how times were worse before. No one ever really
died there, for in the small interests of a quiet community nothing was
forgotten--all the characteristic differences and shades of personality
were treasured in memory, and so the dead lived on. Life for them was
an affair of compensations. “If there weren’t no partin’s, there’d be no
meetin’s,” my grandmother used to say. And death was explained after the
same simple fashion. Every pious Ransbyite believed that heaven would be
another Ransby, with no more storms and an empty churchyard.
I traveled down from London by an afternoon train. Shortly after six we
struck the Broads, or inland waterways, which now narrow into rivers,
now widen into lakes, flowing sluggishly through fat marshes to the sea.
On the left hand as we flashed by, one caught glimpses of the spread
arms of windmills slowly turning, pumping meadows dry, or jutting
above gray sedges the ochre-colored sails of wherries plodding like
cart-horses from Ransby up to Norwich. Startled by the clamor of our
passage, a lonely heron would spring up and float indignantly away
into the distant quiet. Now we would come to a field of wheat faintly
yellowing in the summer sunshine. Between green-gold stalks would flash
the scarlet of the Suffolk poppy. Across the desecrated silence we
hurled the grime and commotion of cities, leaving an ugly blur of
gradually thinning smoke behind.
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