Coming to the end of the lane, we sauntered out on to a broad white
road. It wound across long flat marshes where the wind from the sea is
never quiet. The marshes are intersected with dikes and ditches, dotted
with windbreaks for the cattle, and bridged here and there with planks.
One can see for miles. There is nothing to break the distance save
square Norman towers of embowered churches in solitary hamlets and oddly
barrel-shaped windmills with sails turning, for all the world like
stout giants, gesticulating and pummeling the sky. Here the orchestra
of nature is always practising; its strings, except when a storm is
brewing, are muted. From afar comes the constant bass of the sea,
striking the land in deep arpeggios. Drawing nearer is the soprano
humming of the wind or the staccato cry of some startled bird. Then
comes a multitude of intermittent soloists,--frogs croaking, reeds
rustling, cattle lowing, the rumbling wheels of a wagon. They clamor
in subdued ecstasy, now singly and now together. Through all their song
runs the murmuring accompaniment of water lapping.
In gleaming curves across this green wilderness flow fresh-water lagoons
and rivers which are known as the Broads. Dotted with water-lilies,
barriered with bulrushes, they reflect the sky’s vast emptiness.
Brimming their channels they slip over into the meadows, flashing like
quicksilver through ashen sedges.
The sun had vanished. The lip of the horizon was scarlet. The dust of
twilight was drifting down. In this primitive spaciousness and freedom
one’s thoughts expanded.
“Vi,” I whispered, “we’re two sensible persons. Of what have we to be
afraid? Only ourselves.”
“There’s the future.”
“The future doesn’t belong to us. We have the present. All our lives
we’ve wanted to be happy. Don’t let’s spoil our happiness now that we
have it. Just for to-night we’ll forget you’re married. We’ll be lovers
together--as alone as if no one else was in the world.”
“And afterwards?”
“Afterwards I’ll wait for you. Afterwards can take care of itself.”
The misshapen shadow of sin which had followed and stood between us,
holding us at arm’s length, awkward and embarrassed, was banished. If
this was sin, then wrongdoing was lovely.
We began to talk of how everything had happened--how, out of the great
nothingness of the unknown, we had been flung together. How easy it
would have been for us to have lived out our lives in ignorance of one
another and therefore free from this temptation. We justified ourselves
in the belief that our meeting had been fated. It could not have been
avoided. We were pawns on a chess-board, manipulated by the hand of an
unseen player. We had tried to escape one another and had been forced
together against our wills. The outcome of the game did not come within
the ruling of our decision.
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