More and more after this Vi showed fear of being left alone with me; any
moment a slip of the tongue might betray our passion. Frequently during
the evening hours Mr. Carpenter would join us. He would steal into the
room while Vi was reading and sit down by my bedside. I began to
have great sympathy for the man. Vi’s actions to him were those of a
daughter, and he, when he addressed her, called her “My child.” Both
their attitudes to one another were wrong--it hurt me to watch them;
they made such efforts to create the impression that everything was
well. Sitting beside me while she read, he would fasten his eyes on
her. If she smiled across at him in turning a page, his heavy face would
flood with a quite disproportionate joy. He was too fine a man for the
part he was playing; he had strength of character and mastery over men.
Along his own lines he had a wonderful mind. It was always scheming for
efficiency, concentration, and bigger projects. If money was the reward
of his energy, the desire for power impelled him. But I could quite
understand how a woman might yearn for more human interests and more
subtle methods of conveying affection than the mere piling of luxury on
luxury. He could articulate his deepest emotions only in acts.
One evening when Vi had excused herself on the ground that she had
a headache, I took the opportunity to thank him for his kindness. He
became as confused as if I had discovered him in a lie.
“My dear boy, you mustn’t speak to me like that; you don’t owe me
anything. It is I who owe you everything.”
I was staggered by his disclaimer. Under existing circumstances it
seemed a superlative extravagance of language. Then he explained, “If it
hadn’t been for you, we shouldn’t have Vi.”
It was the first reference that any of us had made to what had happened
at Ransby.
After that Randall Carpenter and I grew to be friends. We didn’t do much
talking about it, but we each realized how the other felt....
I was almost sufficiently recovered to travel. I broached the subject of
my leaving several times--the first time at breakfast. Randall
glanced up sharply from the letter he was opening--his expression
clouded--instead of looking at me he stared at Vi. “Certainly not.
Certainly not,” he blustered. “Couldn’t hear of it.”
Dorrie added her piping protest. Vi alone was silent. Every time I
approached the subject it was the same. The truth was our relations were
so delicately balanced that the slightest disturbance would precipitate
a crisis--and the crisis we dreaded. We each one knew that the time for
frank speaking could scarcely be avoided, but we were eager to postpone
it. So we procrastinated, lengthening out our respite.
One afternoon I returned with Randall from a drive to find Vi waiting
for us at the gate. Her face was drawn with anxiety.
“What’s happened?” asked Randall, and the sharpness of suspense was in
his voice.
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