She crept in noiselessly as a shadow. Her warm arms went about my
neck, drawing my face down to hers. “Oh, Dannie, I’m so, so sorry,” she
whispered.
“What about?”
“Because I’ve never missed welcoming you home ever since you went to
school, and you needed me most of all this evening--and because you’ve
got to go to work.”
“That doesn’t matter, Ruthie. If I go to work I’ll earn money, and then
I’ll be able to do things for you.”
“For me! Oh, you darling!” Then she thought a minute and her face
clouded. “But no, if you go to work you’ll marry. That’s what always
happens.”
She stood gazing up at me, her face looking frailer and purer than ever
in the darkness. She had slipped on a long blue dressing-gown to come
and see me, and her long black hair hung loose about her. Just below the
edge of her gown her small pale feet showed out. Then I realized for
the first time that she had changed as I had changed; we were no longer
children. Perhaps the same wistful imaginings, exquisite and alluring,
had come to her. For her also the walls of childhood, which had shut out
the far horizon, were crumbling. Then, with an overwhelming reverence, I
became aware of the strange fascination of her appealing beauty.
She snuggled herself beside me in the window. We spoke beneath our
breath in the hushed voices of conspirators, lest we should be heard by
my father.
“I couldn’t sleep,” she said apologetically. “I was lonely, so I came to
you. Everything and everybody seem so sad.”
“It was your thoughts that were sad, Ruthie. What were you thinking
about?”
She rubbed her cheek against mine shyly and I felt her tremble. “I
was thinking about you. We’re growing up, Dante. You may go away and
forget--forget all about me and the Snow Lady.”
“I shan’t,” I denied stoutly.
To which she replied, “But people do.”
“Do what?”
“Forget. And then I’m not your sister really--only by pretense.”
“Look here,” I said, “you say that when boys earn money they marry. I
don’t think I ever shall because--well, because of something that has
happened. So why shouldn’t you and I agree to live always together, the
same as we do now?”
She said that that would be grand; she would be a little mother to me.
But she wanted to know what made me so sure that I would always be a
bachelor. With the sincere absurdity of youth, the more absurd because
of its sincerity, I confided my passion for Fiesole. “After what she
has done,” I said, “I could never marry her; and yet I love her too well
ever to marry anybody else. I can only love golden hair now, and the
golden hair of another girl would always remind me of Fiesole.”
Ruthita was silent. Then I remembered that her hair was black and saw
that I had been clumsy in my sentiment, so I added, “But, Ruthie, in a
sister I think black hair is the prettiest color in the world.”
After she had tiptoed away to her room and I had crept into bed, I lay
awake thinking over her words--that she was only my sister by pretense.
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