He mopped his forehead with his handkerchief and sank down on the sofa
with the air of one who, being among pleasant companions, brushes aside
unpleasant topics. “Well, how’s Dante?” he asked, turning to me, “and
how’s the Red House?”
I didn’t know how to answer. The question seemed so inappropriate and
irrelevant. All the kindness which lay between us made such conversation
a cruel farce. I wanted to tell him how sorry I was, and yet I daren’t
in my father’s presence. I realized that such cheeriness on my uncle’s
part was an insult, and yet I understood its motive.
My father’s face had hardened. He had expected some apology, some sign
of humility, or at least some direct appeal to his sympathy. If any of
these things had happened after what Caroline had said, I believe he
would have responded. But this insincere praise of the archculprit and
ostrich-like refusal to face facts simply angered him. He rose to his
feet with the restrained impatience of a just man; the drawn sternness
of his mouth was terrible. His voice had a steely coldness that pierced
through all pretenses.
“Stop this nonsense, Obad,” he said sharply. “Don’t you realize that
you’ve ruined me? Won’t you ever play the man? You know very well that
Rapson will never come back, unless the police bring him. You’ve been
the tool of a conspiracy to swindle the public; it was your religious
standing that made the swindle possible. No one’s called you a thief as
yet, but that’s what everyone’s thinking. I know you’re not a thief, but
you’ve been guilty of the grossest negligence. Can’t you bring home
to yourself the disgrace of that? You’ve always been a shirker of
responsibility. For years you’ve let your wife do all the work. And now,
when through your silly optimism you’ve brought dishonor on the family,
you still persist in hiding behind shams. I tell you, Obad, you’re a
coward; you’re trying to evade the moral consequences of your actions.
If you can’t feel shame now, you must be utterly worthless. Your
attitude is an offense against every right-thinking man. I didn’t set
out this morning with the intention of speaking to you like this. But
your present conduct and that idiotic interview in the newspapers have
made me alter my mind about you. To many men they would prove you nearly
as big a rascal as Rapson.”
My uncle had sat with his body crouched forward, his knees apart, his
hands knitted together, and his eyes fixed on the carpet while my father
had been talking. Now that there was silence he did not stir. I watched
the bald spot on his head, how the yellow skin crinkled and went tight
again as he bunched up and relaxed his brows. He looked so kindly and
yet so ineffectual. My father had flayed him naked with his words. He
had accused him of not being a man; but that was why I loved him. It was
his unworldliness that had made it possible for him to penetrate so
far into a child’s world. Caroline snuffled on the other side of the
keyhole.
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