For a space he was silent, pondering upon her words, almost staggered by
the intensity of her innocent passion. He was not worthy to inspire such
devotion. Had that other Laurence Rivers, his predecessor and namesake,
been more worthy, he wondered. Shame covered him in face of the
deception he was in process of practising upon her. But he put the
thought of that from him fiercely. For was he not prepared to take all
the risks? Surely his action was justified--was it not a work of mercy
to rescue and restore this gentle and homeless ghost? And then, since
the air was mild and the young moon lent an added charm to the formal
alleys of the Italian garden, Laurence, hoping thereby both to allay his
own perturbation of spirit and dissipate the melancholy which still sat
in the clear depths of Agnes Rivers's lovely eyes, engaged her to come
out, once more, and walk. But though the charm of the garden was great,
he almost regretted that he had invited her to leave the shelter of the
house, she appeared so anxiously elusive and fragile a creature.
Watching her, though his courage was stubborn and his will fiercely set,
the task he had undertaken appeared hopeless of accomplishment. But if
the task was hopeless, all the more must it be fulfilled--that had been
the way of his people, and henceforth it was to be his way. And so he
talked to her with a certain lightness, looking at her and smiling.
"Are you happy, Agnes?" he asked her at last.
And she answered with a return to her daintily demure and old-world
manner--
"I should, indeed, be ungrateful were I not so, dear Laurence. Yet,
since you question me, I must own a distrust of the future works a black
thread through all the glad pattern of the present."
She paused, glancing back somewhat timidly at the house. Every window of
it was lighted, save those of Mr. Rivers's bed-chamber. These last were
dark and blank, producing an arresting effect, and recalling to Laurence
the empty eye-sockets of the crystal _memento mori_.
"You are here with me," she continued, "and again I taste happiness. Yet
I am oppressed by the persuasion that, as before, in some hour of
peculiar promise and security you will be called from my side. And that
this time--ah! I fear you may justly reproach my weakness and deride my
far-fetched alarms--this time, going, you will not return; or returning,
you will no longer find me here to greet you."
"Then very certainly I will never go--that is unless you yourself send
me," Laurence said. He walked on a few paces, and then added, speaking
almost sullenly, answering his own thoughts rather than her
words--"Thank Heaven, I am my own master at last. No one can compel me.
I can do as I think fit; and since I think fit to stay, stay I most
assuredly will, here among my own people, and in my own house."
He looked at his companion, instinctively desiring to read approval in
her eyes; but her expression was one of startled inquiry.
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