Her tone was meditative. Her statements were concise. Laurence felt his
back against the wall. He must take the consequences of his own action
however distasteful and disagreeable. His course would have been very
obvious had his record been quite clean in regard to Virginia; but, he
was an honest man. Something of exquisite, of incalculable value had
tempted him; and the peculiarities of his temperament had heightened
that temptation. He had been saved from falling, not by his own virtue,
but by the virtue and self-sacrifice of one adorably his superior. He
could not plume himself upon the achievement. He acknowledged that his
conscience was not clear in respect of Virginia; and this necessitated
the payment of a heavy penalty in connection with his own self-esteem.
His pride rebelled against "giving himself away," against further
self-revelation; only, the logic of the situation prevailed. It cut him
to the quick, yet it had to be done.
"You're quite right," he said. "The matter of the fire could have waited
a little, I dare say, though it isn't exactly satisfactory to know part
of one's house is roofless under a wet, English, July sky; but I had
other bad news to-day." He paused a moment. "I heard of the funeral of a
very dear connection of mine."
Virginia moved slightly, sweeping those fanwise-cut flounces to one
side.
"Funeral?" she said quickly. "Really you have the very oddest manner of
statement. Had you not already heard of his death, then?"
The young man moved too. He turned away, and a poignant sensation tore
and hacked at him, so to speak. It hurt him physically. He gazed out
over the dazzling whiteness of the smooth river seeing nothing, his
whole being tense with the effort to resist the showing of that pain.
"Yes, yes, I have heard of her death, but I refused to believe it," he
answered.
There was a moment of ominous silence, save for the shrilling of the
insects, and lapping of the stream.
"Oh, a woman!" she said, with an almost alarming calm. "Have I ever
heard of her?"
"I think not," Laurence answered.
"Then Louise had grounds for her assertions," she said, still with that
deadly calm. "I thought it unworthy to listen. I forbade her to write or
speak to me upon the subject. I--"
Laurence wheeled round. His eyes were dangerous. All the fanaticism of
his race, and something finer than that, looked out of them.
"Think what you please of me," he cried; "but of her, think no evil.
Never dare to think any evil. She was one of the saints of God; and you,
of all women, have no cause to misjudge her. She saved me from
committing a great sin."
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