Since his declaration at Newark there had been something in the
quality of his affection which she disliked. His eyes were always
seeking hers, he tried to take her hand when occasion offered. If
they were alone he would seat himself beside her, closer than she
liked. She was growing very shy of him. The virginal instinct to
fly from pursuit was strong in her.
He began to wonder how much longer he should be able to bear the
present situation. It was anomalous. They could not expect a letter
from Felix for another ten days or more. And it might not be a
letter which came. It might be Felix himself.
As he hastened down from the terrace, and relieved her of the tall
delphiniums and golden rod and dahlias which she carried, it was in
his heart to catch her and hold her close, and cry to her that she
was his, and that Felix should not come between them. Instead, he
merely smiled upon her, and asked affectionately, but somewhat
tritely, if she had missed him. She replied, with lowered eye-lids
and a charming dignity, that she had.
He meant to say something to the effect that he chafed against the
restraints imposed upon him by their waiting, by their scrupulous
regard for the absent man. Instead of that, he burst forth without
reflection--
"Come and let us sit on the stone seat and talk! It is about a
hundred years since I left you."
Veronica did not look at all delighted, but she obediently turned
with him, and they went slowly across the lawn to a distant part of
the garden, where there was an Alpine rockery. They sat down
together upon a small bench, let into the rocks which bordered the
path. They had sat there often, during the few golden weeks since
her return. But this afternoon Rona felt a restless insecurity, a
desire to rise up and go and leave Denzil to himself. What could
they say to each other? There was nothing to be said. Her heart was
empty of any feeling for him, beyond the grateful affection which by
no means craves stolen interviews.
As for Denzil, for the first time in his life his impulses were
galloping off with his reason. The very aloofness and gentle
coolness of the maiden spurred him on.
"Rona," he said feverishly, "I feel as if all my life I had been
waiting to know that you are free."
She smiled ambiguously. "Don't let us talk of that."
"Of what, then? I don't feel at this moment as if I care a pin for
anything else in the world."
She regarded him with curiosity. "Do you really feel that?"
"Indeed I do. Don't you?"
She was gazing straight before her, and she shook her head. "Not a
bit. I must tell the truth, you know. I feel the world is big, and
very--frightfully--interesting. And there are many things I want to
know about, and talk about."
He sat very silent. "Then--then--you don't--er--return my feeling?
You are not in love with me, as I am with you, Rona?" he wistfully
demanded, at length.
After a pause, "I don't know," she replied.
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