And now came, perhaps, the most bitter trial of a young life which had
already seen more cloud than sunshine. The hour had come when Ida told
herself that she must no longer dawdle along the flowery path of sin, no
longer palter with fate. Stern duty must be obeyed, She must leave
Kingthorpe. It was no longer a question of feeling, but a question of
conscience--right against wrong, truth against falsehood, honour against
dishonour; for she knew in her heart of hearts that Brian loved her, and
that she gave him back his love, measure for measure. He had said nothing
definite; she had contrived to ward off anything like a declaration; but
she had not been able to prevent his absorbing her society on all
possible occasions, taking possession of her, as it were, as of one who
belonged to him in the present and the future, deferring to her lightest
wish as only a lover defers to his mistress, studying her preferences in
everything, and hardly taking the trouble to hide his comparative
indifference to the society of other people. It had come to this, and she
knew that there must be no further delay.
One evening, when she and Aunt Betsy had been dining alone, and had
returned to the drawing-room, where it was Ida's custom at this hour to
play her kind patroness to sleep with all the dreamiest and most pensive
melodies in her extensive _répertoire_, the girl suddenly faltered in her
playing, wandered from one air into another, and with a touch so
uncertain that Aunt Betsy, who was fast lapsing into dreamland, became
broad awake again all at once, and wanted to know the reason why.
'Is anything the matter? Are you ill, child?' she asked, abruptly.
Ida rose from the piano, where her tears had been dropping on the keys,
and came out of the shadowy corner to the verandah, where Aunt Betsy sat
among her roses, wrapped in a China crape shawl, one of the gifts of that
Indian warrior, Colonel Wendover. August was nearly over, but the weather
was still warm enough for sitting out of doors in the twilight.
'What is the matter, Ida? What has happened?' repeated Miss Wendover,
with her hand on the girl's shoulder, as she bent to listen to her.
Ida was kneeling by Aunt Betsy's side, her head leaning against the arm
of her chair, her face hidden.
'Nothing, nothing that you can help or cure, dearest friend,' she
answered in a broken voice. 'You must know how good you have been to me.
Yes, even you must know that, although it is your nature to make light of
your goodness. I think you know I love you and am grateful. Tell me that
you believe that before I say another word.'
'I do believe it. Your whole conduct since you have been with me has
shown as much,' answered Miss Wendover, calmly. She saw that Ida was
powerfully moved, and she wanted to tranquillise her. 'What is the
meaning of this preface?'
'Only that I must ask you to let me leave you.'
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