'They can do without us, Ida,' he said, laying his hand upon her arm;
'but I cannot do without telling you my mind any longer. Why have you
avoided me so? Why have you made it so difficult for me to speak to
you of anything but trivialities--when you must know--you must have
known--what I was longing to say?'
The passion in his lowered voice--that voice of deep and thrilling
tone--which had a power over her that no other voice had ever possessed,
the expression of his face as he looked at her in the moonlight, told her
much more than his words. She put up her hands entreatingly to stop him.
'For God's sake, not another word,' she cried,' if--if you are going to
say you care for me, ever so little, even. Not one more word. It is a
sin. I am the most miserable, most guilty, among women, even to be here,
even to have heard so much.'
'What do you mean? What else should I say? What can I say, except that I
love you devotedly, with all my heart and mind? that I will have no other
woman for my wife? You can't be surprised. Ida, don't pretend that you
are surprised. I have never hidden my love, I have let you see that I was
your slave all along. My darling, my beloved, why should you shrink from
me? What can part us for an instant, when I love you so dearly, and
know--yes, dearest, _I know_ that you love me? _That_ is a question upon
which no man ever deceived himself, unless he were a fool or a coxcomb.
Am _I_ a fool, Ida?'
'No, no, no. For pity's sake, say no more. You ought not to have spoken.
I am going away from Kingthorpe to-morrow, perhaps for ever. Yes, for
ever. How could I know, how could I think you would care for me? Let me
go!' she cried, struggling away from him as he clasped her hand, as he
tried to draw her towards him. 'It is hopeless, mad, wicked to talk to me
of love: some day you will know why, but not now. Be merciful to me;
forget that you have ever known me.'
'Ida, Ida,' shrieked shrill voices in the distance. White figures came
flying down the broad gravel-walk, ghost-like in the moonlight.
It was a blessed relief. Ida broke from Brian, and ran to meet Blanche
and Bessie.
'Ida, Ida, such fun, such a surprise!' shrieked Blanche, as the flying
white figures came nearer, wavered, and stopped.
'Only think of his coming on my birthday again!' exclaimed Bessie, 'and
at this late hour--just as if he had dropped from the moon!'
'Who,--who has come?' cried Ida, looking from one to the other, with a
scared white face.
It seemed to her as if the moonlit garden was moving away in a thick
white cloud, spots of fire floated before her eyes, and then all the
world went round like a fiery wheel.
'Brian--the other Brian--Brian Walford! Isn't it sweet of him to come
to-night?' said Bessie.
Ida reeled forward, and would have fallen but for the strong arm that
caught her as she sank earthwards, the grip which would have held her and
sustained her through all life's journey had fate so willed it.
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